All Mye Queen's Men, Chronicles of Love - Volume II, page 40
“Oh I can't examine you, but Christian can? You're being ridiculous. I'm a doctor just like Christian.”
“You may be a doctor, but you're nothing like Chris. There's a big difference between you and Chris.”
“You know what... whatever! Melissa please examine her before I strangle her silly ass.” Queen announced as she took her gloves off, threw them in the trash and began to wash her hands. “We're going to talk about this shit later and you're getting a new Ob/Gyn doctor.”
“Whatever... I might not be the only one who's going to be changing doctors.” Jade teased.
“Oh, I don't believe you took it there.”
“Oh believe it. And you know why.” Jade laughed.
Dr. Goodwin immediately went to work examining Jade, totally ignoring Queen and Jade. “Okay, her water has broke, but she's only two centimeters dilated. Since this is her first baby, we have some time. I think we can make it to Her Lady of Mercy. The ambulance is on its way. If we leave soon we shouldn't have a problem.”
“Alright, well against my better judgment I'll ride with the crazy lady and I'll come back for my truck later. You don't have to come Melissa, but thanks for the offer.”
“No problem.”
“Whatever.” Jade smirked right before another contraction hit her. “Exactly how long is the transport to Her Lady of Mercy?” She grimaced as she grabbed Queen's hand and squeezed as hard as she could in an effort to bear the pain.
“We'll be there in ten minutes or less by ambulance. I'll call Dorian and Christian as soon as we get in.”
“I'll check and see how we're doing with the ambulance. It shouldn't be much longer. You're doing great Jade. Just hang in there and keep track of those contractions.” Dr. Goodwin reassured. “They're coming a little quicker than I would expect.”
“Somebody forgot to tell this little girl that we're on a covert mission that requires the utmost discretion. She's kicking my ass. We've got to get the hell out of here before I deliver her on this exam table.”
“Don't worry we'll be at Mercy in a few.” Queen promised.
CHAPTER 52
Christian peered up at Queen as she rubbed Jade's back for comfort and attempted to coach her to push. Queen's eyes met his briefly and she quickly diverted them from his stare. She couldn't even bare to look at him. How could she? As wrong as a stripper giving lap dances at a prayer meeting she searched for a way to avoid his piercing eyes.
“Okay Jade, you're getting ready to have another big contraction.” Queen announced as she watched the fetal monitor. “Your daughter's almost here but you got to push with all you have this time.” She coached.
Dorian's eyes were as large as new moons as he watched over Christian's shoulders as Christian cleared a path for his baby girl to enter the world. ”Jade, I see her, she's right there! Push baby, push as hard as you can!”
“Why are you still here?” Jade screamed. “I thought I put your ass out of here an hour ago! You did this to me. Now get the hell out! You’re lucky I can't reach you, or I'd punch you right in your damn face! Oh my God it feels like I'm shitting out a watermelon!”
“Okay, stop fighting with Dorian and bear down and push! The baby's almost out!” Queen commanded.
“Alright, this is it Jade. Take a big breath and push!” Christian yelled as the baby's head crowned further and prepared for delivery. “Okay, Great! One more big push and you can hold your daughter in your arms.”
Queen rallied Jade for one final push. ”You can do this. This is the last one. Big breath and push! Keep pushing... Oh my God I can see her! Push Jade! Push!”
Jade let out a blood curdling scream as she pushed her beautiful baby girl into Christian's waiting hands. Christian quickly cleared her airway and Baby Girl Swann took her first breath of reality. Christian carefully bundled her in a blanket and gave her to her father, kicking and screaming at the top of her lungs.
Dorian broke into tears as his eyes met hers for the first time. She looked just like her mother, but she had his eyes. “Jade she looks just like you!” He cried as he took her to her mom.
Queen wiped a fresh trail of tears from her own eyes as she watched the ecstatic couple dote over their newborn baby. Christian caught a glimpse of her crying. Unable to leave Jade to comfort her he simply asked, “Are you okay Dr. Queen.”
Queen's eyes met his as she choked back tears. “Yeah, I'm alright. Is everything okay?”
“Yeah, everything is good. I'll be with you in a second.” He smiled and winked. “Is everybody okay? How's my niece doing?”
“She's beautiful, absolutely beautiful!” Dorian declared as he kissed Jade hard on the lips. “I love you baby. I swear to God that you're the best thing that ever happened to me.”
A worn, tired and thoroughly beaten Jade managed to whisper, “I love you too. She has your eyes, you know?”
“I know. I saw them.” Dorian said as he fought back tears of joy. “I know.”
Christian’s eyes continued to haunt Queen. Try as hard as she could she could not avoid their glare. Every time she glanced in his general direction there they were, searching her core. Unable to withstand his gaze any longer she excused herself from the room. “Jade I need some air. I’ll be right back.”
“Is everything alright Dr. Queen? You’re not getting woozy on me are you?” He asked a little concerned as he watched the color quickly drain from Queen’s face.
“No, I’m okay I just need a little air. I’m alright.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yeah, I’m sure. I just need to sit down for a minute.”
“Okay, well wait for me in my office. I’ll be there in less than ten minutes.”
“No... Take your time. I’m fine. I’m just a little overwhelmed. I’ll just lie down in the office until you finish with Jade.”
“Queen is everything alright?” A concerned Jade asked as she searched Queen’s face for a clue what was going on.
The plastic smile on Queen‘s face quickly told the whole story. “Yeah, I‘m good. I just have to get out of here for a second.”
“Alright... well don’t worry about us. We’re fine. Go get some fresh air. We’ll be here when you get back.”
“Congratulations. She’s beautiful.” Queen managed as she hugged Dorian and then softly kissed Jade on the forehead. “I’ll be back in a few, after I get myself together.” She whispered in Jade’s ear.
“I understand.” Jade whispered back.
“Dr. Queen, I’m almost done. I’ll meet you in the office in about ten or fifteen minutes.” Christian interjected as he continued to clean Jade up and prepared for the delivery of the afterbirth.
The distraught Queen did not respond. She reserved what little strength she had to propel her wobbly legs as far away from that delivery room and Christian as she could get. Unfortunately that wasn’t very far. She managed to get as far as the waiting room before collapsing in a chair.
Ten minutes later an anxious Dr. Love emerged from the delivery room to find his Queen balled up in that same chair. Concerned and confused he gently wrapped his arms around her and comforted her while she sobbed. “ Queen, what's going on? You've been a bundle of emotions every since I got back from LA.” Realizing the answer to his own question. Christian decided not to press the issue. “Come with me. Let's go to my office. You can lie down there. I'll take you home after I get Jade situated and sign out to Dr. Flowers.” He whispered in her ear.
Queen did not respond. Still she managed to muster up the courage and strength to walk with Christian to his office in the professional building adjacent to the hospital. Queen's legs felt as if they were turning into lead as they navigated the maze of corridors that led to Christian's office. The seven minute walk felt like an eternity as the two continued in silence, neither one knowing what to say to comfort the other. In all actually silence would soon be the only comfort the two of them would ever expect to enjoy for a long time.
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It was late Saturday night and the professional building was like a ghost town. The lobby and corridors were oddly empty and deathly quiet. So quiet in fact that Queen could hear the loud repetitive thump of her own heart beat as they neared Christian's suite. Jade's warning to tell Christian about Logic from a rice patty in Indonesia suddenly sounded like a very good idea. Unfortunately that option was no longer on the menu.
Christian unlocked the door and Queen headed straight for the restroom to wash her face and blow her nose. Oh yeah, and to figure out a way of getting out of there without Christian fucking her up!
“Lie down. I'm making tea.” Christian yelled from the employee break area.
“Okay. Thanks.” Queen managed as she removed a blanket from the linen closet and made her way over to the sofa in the deserted waiting room of Christian's swank office.
The moment she curled up on the sofa and tried to get comfortable Christian was there with a steaming hot cup of tea. “Here, drink some of this it'll make you feel better.”
Queen set up and took the cup from Christian's hands. Their eyes met as he sat down beside of her. Christian's eyes were compassionate, genuinely concerned and filled with unconditional love for Queen.
“Drink up, I'll get my things and we'll go home. You look terrible. I can only imagine how you feel.”
Queen reserved comment as she watched Christian head for his office to grab a few things from his desk. It was up to Queen to choose her battleground. Did she tell him now and risk both of them being hauled off to jail by hospital security, or did she wait to tell him at home?
“Alright, I got everything are you ready to go?”
Queen took a final sip of her tea and decided to hold her peace and live to fight another day when she was stronger, more agile and able to run. Besides why ruin Jade's and Dorian's special day with her bullshit? “Yeah, let’s go home.”
CHAPTER 53
A whole twenty four hours had passed before Queen was once again forced to deal with her Baby Daddy drama. Christian had a lot of questions and unfortunately Queen didn't have any answers. For all practical purposes she remained in bed all day Sunday and he catered to her every whim.
“So, do you feel better Mye Queen?” He asked as she finished her dinner in bed.
“Yes, a lot better. Thank you.”
“Better enough to talk to me about what's going on with you?”
Sensing that it was time to face the music Queen set up on the side of the bed. She stared in Christian's eyes and kissed his handsome face. He kissed her soft lips and then sought her tongue with his hungry mouth.
“I love you. I just hope that you know that.” She whispered. “And absolutely nothing will ever change that.”
“I love you too. But we need to talk.”
“Yeah I know.”
“So, I take it that you know for a fact that you are pregnant. Right?”
“Yeah. I took a home pregnancy test at Jade's and it was positive.”
“Why were you and Jade at County when she went into labor?”
“I went to County to see Dr. Melissa Goodwin a classmate of mine whose an Ob/Gyn to confirm the results with a blood test.”
“So, why didn't you just let me draw some blood at my office? Why did you go all the way down there?”
“Honestly, I didn't want anyone at Mercy in my business.”
“Okay, but why did you exclude me? I thought we were going to do this together.”
“Christian I was scared to death. I'm still scared to death for that matter. I just needed to know for sure before we talked. Then Jade went into labor and I was basically done after that.”
Christian hugged Queen and kissed her gently on her forehead. “Baby why are you so afraid to face this? Don't you want this baby? Talk to me and tell me what's up.”
Queen hesitated for what seemed like an eternity.
“Queen, please tell me that you want this. All my life this is all I ever wanted. Please tell me that you want it too.”
Queen's eyes instantly begin to swell with tears. She knew that this was going to be hard, but she had no idea that it would hurt this much. Her heart felt like it was about to bust. In retrospect she wished she had just told him about Logic when he got back from LA. It would have been a lot easier to tell him that then to have to tell him this now.
As she wiped the lone tear that trickled down her cheek she noticed that Christian was wiping tears of his own. Not once had she ever seen this man cry. Christian was a big, proud, strong black man. It cut her like a samurai to see him crying like a baby. It hurt even more to know that she was causing him so pain.
“Queen, I promise that you won't have to do anything except have the baby. I'll do everything else. In time you'll see that this was the right thing to do. Just carry my child for me and I'll take care of them and you from here on. Okay? Please Queen?” He begged as he choked back tears.
Queen couldn't take his pain another second. Unfortunately the only way to end it was to inflict even more pain and carnage. Sure, she could carry the truth about her indiscretion to the grave. But she knew that it would eventually eat at her like a flesh eating virus until it completely consumed her. Christian didn't deserve this level of betrayal from anyone especially not her. Hell, he had been more faithful to her than any man she had ever known.
That meant a lot to her. It destroyed her to know that she had been incapable of being faithful to him. Baby or no baby she had to fess up. She wanted their marriage to be based on honesty, love and trust. And to keep this secret one second longer would ruin any chance of this ever happening. Queen realized that she was merely prolonging the inevitable which would only compound the matter. Christian had to be told the truth if they had even a slither of a chance of at least remaining friends.
Still, Queen didn't quite know how to tell him. So, she did the only thing left to do. She counted to three and then blurted out. “I slept with someone while you were in LA. I went to County to get a sonogram because I wasn't sure if the baby was yours. I'm sorry.”
“What did you say?” Christian asked shocked.
“The baby's yours of course. The sonogram proved that. I just couldn't keep the truth from you anymore. It was killing me what I did to us.”
“What? Please tell me that you're kidding me! Because I know fuckin well that you can't possibly be serious. You slept with somebody since we've been engaged?”
“Christian I'm sorry... I didn't mean to...”
“To what Queen? FUCK him or to FUCKIN get caught!” Christian screamed as he threw the bed tray with Queen's leftover dinner on it against the bedroom wall. “I can't fuckin believe you. You got so much shit with you Queen!”
“Christian!” Queen screamed as she retreated to the other side of the bed for safety.
“Christian my ass! What the fuck is wrong with you? I do every fucking thing for you except wipe your ass and you're going to pull this bullshit on me? What the fuck did I do to deserve this shit? Huh Queen? I'm not enough for you?” Christian ranted. “I was gone just a few fuckin weeks and you couldn't keep your fucking legs closed?”
“Christian I ...”
“Shut the fuck up! Queen I swear to God! Don't say a fuckin thing else to me. Ever!”
“Chris calm down. You asked me a question and I was...”
“Didn't I just say shut the fuck up!” Christian screamed as he smashed the lamp on the floor, glaring at her, daring Queen to speak again.
“Who the fuck is he? Who the fuck did you fuck? Was it Dr. Chambers? He's always up in your fuckin face grinning. Looking at you like you're a pussy pop. Was it him?”
Queen didn't answer.
“Answer me damn it! Was it him?”
“You told me not to speak.”
“Queen don't fuckin play with me right now. I'm a rat's ass hair away from fuckin you up right now. Did you sleep with that mother fucka?”
“No of course not.”
“Then who was it?”
Queen hesitated. She knew that all hell was about to break loose the moment Christian discovered that it was Logic.
“You have ten fuckin seconds to open your mouth and tell me who the fuck it is. You know what never mind. I just figured out who it is. I fuckin can't believe that you fucked up my life to fuck a mother fuckin male stripper! It was Chocolate Thunder Down Under wasn't it? Wasn't it? You think I don't see his name pop up in your phone history. You fucked that nasty nigga didn't you?”
“It wasn't Derrick. Derrick and I are just friends. I told you that. And what were you doing going through my phone?”
“What was I doing in your phone? Seriously, you want to go there? You're my fuckin fiancé, Queen! I can look in your phone all I want. And who the fuck is Derrick?”
“Derrick is Chocolate Thunder Down Under and no I never had sex with him.”
“Then who the fuck is it? Some random mother fucka you met on the street? Who the fuck was it Queen? Tell me right now! Cause my chest is about to explode, standing here playing the who's fucking my fiancé game with you.”
Queen hesitated and then confessed. “It's Logic.”
Christian looked off in space puzzled, racking his brain in an effort to figure out how or why he knew that name. “Who? Who the fuck is Logic?”
“Logic Hart.”
Christian searched his memory banks again when it suddenly hit him. “Logic Hart! Logic Hart of the Nevada Kings, that fuckin Logic Hart?”
Queen merely nodded terrified to acknowledge it out loud.
“You fuckin fucked Logic Hart, Teddy's friend?”
Queen reserved comment. She blankly stared at Christian wishing that she had done what Jade warned her to do.
“Answer me damn it!”
“Yes.” Queen quietly admitted.
“When the fuck did you start fucking him?”
“When I was fifteen.” She quietly responded.
“What did you say?”
“I said when I was fifteen. Logic was my first.”
“So, how long has this bullshit been going on?”
“Since it started, we never stopped. Well at least not until we got engaged. But then...”
“Hold the fuck up! So you were fucking this nigga the entire time you were with Teddy?”
