All Mye Queen's Men, Chronicles of Love - Volume II, page 32
Jade and Queen hold their peace until they enter the Bridal Suite. Jade immediately kicks off her shoes and Queen begins to untie the corset strings in the back of Jade's dress.
“Queen I hate to say it but, you know that you're in a lot of trouble, right? Teddy will be up here in a few and Christian is mad as hell. Did you see the look on his face when Teddy said that you two were going upstairs? I've never seen him like that. So, you better figure out what or should I say who you're going to do.”
“I have no clue what to do. I feel like a trapped rat. With strong emphasis on the word rat. Shit! What the hell was I thinking? Bear's going to be up here in less than fifteen minutes and I am out of excuses.”
“Fuck it! Go ahead and fuck him then.”
“That wouldn't be a problem if Christian hadn't went all love struck on me and threatened to out me if I don't out myself first.”
“He's going to tell Teddy about last night?”
“Worse, he's going to tell Bear about last night and every night before that. He wants to tell Bear that we're in love or some shit.”
“Oh, Teddy's going to straight fuck both of y'all up.”
“Well hopefully he’ll just shoot me and get it over with quick, because I can’t take it anymore.”
“So what's up with you and Christian? Are you in love with him, or what?”
“Yeah, I think I am. He's everything I’m waiting for Bear to be. But Jade I'm not ready to tell Bear that. I got a whole lot of shit to lose. Not to mention after all of these years, Jade I'm still in love with Bear.”
“Queen, you know what I say? Tell him. Clear the air and let the shit plop where it may. He should hear it from you not from Christian. So what? You screwed up one fuckin time. He has to have it in him to forgive you at least once, especially since you've forgiven him so many damn times.”
“I know he'll forgive me. The problem is that I'm not done with Christian. I want him more now than ever. I can't hurt him by dismissing him like that.”
“Damn it Queen. They're too close for that shit. You can't have them both. That shit will tear their friendship apart and they'll both eventually resent you for doing it. You got to choose. You can choose one or the other or neither, but you are going to have to choose.”
“I can't at least not tonight.”
“Then as I see it you stand the risk of losing both of them. Teddy's going to find out tonight, one way or the other. If you choose to stay with Teddy you gotta know that he is cold gonna dog your ass out of general spite, every chance he gets. And Christian is going to be so ghost his name might as well be Casper. On the other hand if you choose Christian then the closest you'll ever come to Teddy Bear Davine will be Monday Night Football on TV. And you know for a fact that will hurt way more than his cheating.”
“Derrick was right. In retrospect I would have made out better if I just went home with him last night.”
“Oh really? I don't know about that. The last time I looked he was downstairs waiting patiently to pick up what's left of you when these two niggas are finished tearing your ass apart.”
“So what am I supposed to do? Cause I can’t lose both of them.”
“What do you want to do? Teddy will be up here in less than ten minutes. Are you going to sleep with him?”
“I don't know. I guess. Jade, he's still my baby.”
“You are straight up a slut! Didn’t you get enough dick last night?”
“Why am I a slut… because I want to make love to my man?”
“Then you have your answer. Screw your man and tell Christian to fuck off.” Jade advised as she slips into a slinky, form fitting ivory gown.
Queen zips her up. “Jade! You know that I can't do that. I'm in love with Christian.”
“In essence, if you screw Teddy, that's what he's going to hear, whether you say it or not.”
“So what is Bear going to hear if I don't make love to him?”
“Teddy is going to hear, ‘I can't fuck you because I fucked someone else last night.’ And my guess is he's going to beat the shit out of your stripper friend, because naturally he is going to assume it's him. Well, that is unless you tell him something different. Which of course you will do and in that case he's going to cold pimp slap Christian's ass the first chance he gets.”
“You're right, anyway I cut it I'm screwed.”
Jade refreshes her lipstick in the mirror. “Pretty much. Look, by now Teddy's down there having a good time. Chances are he won't even come up here. Especially, if we get down there before he comes up here. That'll buy you a little more time. God knows what you’re going to do with it.”
“I'm way ahead of you.”
Jade quickly slips on her shoes just as they hear the front door of the suite open. Queen rushes out of the bedroom to see who it is, fearing that it was Teddy.
“Christian, what are you doing up here?” Queen asked surprised.
“Queen, Teddy found out about last night. He's on his way up here.”
“What? How did he find out? Who the hell told him?”
“That stupid fuckin Jon was down there running his damn mouth.”
“Jon? Who the fuck told Jon?”
“Nobody! The guys were all standing around talking. So, Jon started telling Teddy what happened with the shot of Tequila and shit. I eased out to go to the bathroom. Next thing I know I get a text from Dorian that said ‘He knows tell Q.’ So, I hit the elevator before he got to me. I called Dorian back and he said Teddy was looking for me and that he's fuckin pissed.”
“Oh my God! You need to get out of here. Let me deal with Bear.”
“Fuck that I'm not going anywhere! I came to warn you. I'm not running from that nigga. Let’s get this shit over with right now. We'll face him together.”
“And say exactly what Christian? I don't want to see either of you hurt. So please do me a favor and wait for me in the Penthouse.”
“Queen no. I can't and I won't do it. Let's get this shit over with.”
Suddenly the door to the suite flings open and Teddy rushes in the great room followed by Dorian, Jon and two other groomsmen. “Queen, did you fuck this mother fucka?”
Queen instinctively heads towards Teddy. “Bear let me explain.”
Christian pulls her back and stands in front of her. “Teddy, it's not like that.”
“Mother fucka don't say shit to me. I was talking to my woman. I'm already two hot seconds from knocking your fuckin bitch ass out!” Teddy lunges at Christian, but he is held back by the guys. “Get The fuck off of me. Let me go Dorian.”
“I can't do that right now man. I can't let you two fight. Calm down man. Chris is your boy.”
“Fuck him. He fucked my girl. He ain't shit to me and I’m going to kill his ass when I get my hands on him.” Teddy struggles against the force of the four men. “Queen, what the fuck is up? Did you fuckin fuck him? Queen, answer me. Did you fuck this mother fucka?”
“Okay, everybody out except Teddy.” Queen commanded.
“Fuck that I'm staying here with you.” Christian insisted.
“Nigga, she said get the fuck out! Now you can get out or they can carry your ass out. It doesn't matter to me. You know that I'm going to fuck you up just as soon as I get lose? Don't you? You back stabbing bitch! You knew Queen was my woman and you go and fuck her behind my back. You bitch ass mother fucka! I’m fuckin your ass up the second I get a chance!”
“Fuck it! If that's what it's got to be, than that’s what it's got to be. But I'm not leaving Queen in here with you like this.”
Queen tugs on Christian's arm to get his attention. “Christian I need to talk to Bear alone. I’m okay. He's not going to hurt me.”
“Queen don't ask me to...”
“I'm only asking you for the time that you promised me earlier. Please just let me talk to him alone? I'll be okay.”
“Translation, get the fuck out nigga!” Teddy snorted.
“Teddy, I don't want to fight with you. I'll step outside. No problem. But I swear to God if you touch Queen I will end your fuckin monkey ass.”
“Mother fucka can't you hear? Didn't I say don't say shit to me! Queen's my fuckin woman. She always has been and she always will be. And one fuck with you ain't going to change shit. My name is engraved in that pussy. Remember that bitch! That's my damn pussy. I’m the fuckin reigning King! I don't give a fuck if you saw lucky charms, green clovers and fucking Tinker Bell herself gave you a blow job. Just wait until I get my hands on your fuckin bitch ass. Pussy ass mother fucka!”
“Oh so Queen's your woman, huh?”
“What mother fucka? You know she's my damn woman? Don't make me find a gun and put some hot shit in your ass.”
“If Mye Queen is your woman then you should have fuckin treated her like she was your queen! Hell over the past six months she's been more my woman than yours. I'm the nigga taken her out three or four times a week. And snuggling in bed with her every night.”
“I swear to God, I will fuck your shit up when I get loose. Say another mother fuckin word to me and see what's up. Go ahead and try me bitch. Say another fuckin word, nigga! I dare you.” Teddy continues to struggle against the grip of the four guys who are holding him. “Let me go Dorian. This shit ain't right let me go. Come on let me go.”
“Christian, please. You promised.” Queen pleaded. “You're just making it worse.”
Christian bites his lips and walks past Teddy and out of the suite. Jade and Jon follow him.
“Bear, come with me. Let him go Dorian. He's okay.” Queen walks over to where they are holding Teddy and extends her hand for Teddy. The guys cautiously release him. He follows her into the great room. “We're alright. Thanks everybody.”
Dorian and the remainder of the groomsmen cautiously back out of the suite. Queen follows them and locks the door. Teddy remains in the great room watching her every move. She approaches him slowly. Understandably, he is pissed the fuck off.
“So are you going to answer the question now or what?” Queen reaches out to hold Teddy's hand. “Don't fuckin touch me Queen until you answer the fuckin question.”
Queen remains oddly calm. “It's not really that simple, Bear.”
“Why isn't it Queen? It seems pretty simple to me. Either you fucked him or you didn't. He stuck his dick in your pussy or he didn't. So again did you fuck Christian?”
“Yes, I did, but it wasn't planned. And we certainly didn't mean to hurt you in anyway.”
“That mother fucka just said that he's been sleeping with you every night, but somehow you didn't think that bullshit was going to hurt me?”
“Bear, I swear to God last night was the first time we had sex. Absolutely nothing happened between us before last night.”
“Really? So it's a big damn coincidence that you slept with him the same night that you told me that you were going to fuck somebody else. I don't fuckin believe you. How the fuck could you do this shit to me Queen? I fuckin love you! You know that I'd rip my heart out and give it to you if you asked me to. And you go behind my back and fuck my boy. Why did you fuckin pull this shit when you knew I wanted to marry you? What the fuck is wrong with you Queen?”
“Bear, I know how much this hurts. And you know more than anyone in this world that I do. But I didn't do this to hurt you. We didn't do this to hurt you. I talked all of that shit earlier, but when it came down to it I couldn't do it. Hell, I didn't want to do it. But then the shit happened with the Tequila and Christian was in trouble. Not to mention I was horny as hell.”
“Oh and I wasn't horny?”
“Look, the truth is that I don't have an excuse. I fucked up. It's not Christian's fault. So, don't hold it against him. I rented the room and I took him there and I initiated sex. Christian was high on E and influenced by Viagra. He's just as much a victim as you. I'm sorry I didn't think shit out. I thought if I had just one indiscretion of my own that I could get pass all of yours and we could finally move on. But I swear, it wasn't supposed to be with Christian. I swear to God.”
“Oh really? So who was it suppose to be with then? Huh? Was it suppose to be with that fuckin stripper downstairs? Huh Queen?
“Bear I...”
“Don't even fuckin think about trying to explain this bullshit to me. I fuckin begged you not to do it. I spent the entire day trying to get here to you. And what do I get for my efforts? I’ll tell you what- my best friends sloppy fuckin seconds!”
“Bear that’s not fair. Look I heard every word you said. I wasn't going to do anything. I really wasn’t. Then all that bullshit went down and Christian needed me.”
“So, let me make sure I got this shit right. Because this nigga's dick got hard you felt it was your fuckin job to get it down?”
“It's not like that. Christian and I have gotten close. The simple truth is that I did it because I wanted him.”
“So, now what? You want to be with him? Are we done or what? Is that what you are telling me?”
“I don't know. You tell me.”
“What do you want to do? Ain't shit changed between us. You know how I feel about you. I love you. I’m not going to walk away because of this bullshit. What's up with you? Are you sprung for that nigga, like he's sprung for you? Or do you still love me?”
“Don’t ask me that, Bear. You know that I still love you. You and I will never be completely done. But we can't keep going like we've been going.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Bear, you know what I'm talking about. You're never around and I can't trust you. Hell, we're just recovering from an incident. I can't go through it again.”
“You fucked it up this time, Queen. Not me. Truth be told half of my fuck ups were because you were fucking around with Logic. This shit is all on you. So, what do you want to do?”
“Okay, look me in my eyes and tell me that in the past three months you did not even sniff another pussy. If you can do that we'll go in that bedroom and we'll get our shit back on track. But if you can't...”
“If I can't then what?”
“Christian's a good man and he's in love with me. If you can't then I need you to let me go. Bear, I deserve to be happy. You are my best friend in this entire world and I don't ever want to lose that. But if you can't get control over your dick then you got to let me go. Because, if you keep dogging me I'm going to hate you for it one day. Queen cups Teddy tear stained face in her hands as tears of her own run freely down her cheeks.
“Queen, I don't want to be your damn friend. I want to be your man. You're my woman. You've always been my woman. Even when you were with Paul and Logic, you still belonged to me. You know it and I know it.” Teddy confessed.
“Baby I know, but if we're going to go any further I need you to look at me and tell me that you've been faithful for the past ninety days like you promised.” Queen's voice begins to crack and tears quickly flow from her eyes. “Do that and I'll go out there and tell Christian that I made a really big mistake last night.”
“Queen, you know that I have issues and you are the only one that can control me. I can't do this without you.”
“And you won't ever have to. Nothing will change. I'll always be there for you until the day I die. But I need to know the truth.”
“Queen, I swear on Paul's grave that I didn't sniff another pussy, let alone touch one the entire three months.”
Tears burst from Queen's eyes as she jumps in Teddy's arms. Teddy kisses her full in the mouth. He squeezes her and holds her tight and can't bring himself to let her go.
“Girl, do you know how much I love you?”
“No, tell me.”
“Enough to let you go.” Teddy hesitates and then peels Queen off of him, and sets her feet down on the ground. He looks lovingly at her as he slowly wipes the tears from her eyes.
“What? What are you talking about?”
“Queen, you know how much I love you, right? And you know that the last thing I ever wanted to do was to hurt you.”
“But?”
“Come sit over here I need to talk to you about something.”
“I don't want to sit down. What's going on?”
“Come sit with me for a minute.”
“Bear, don't do this, you're starting to scare me.”
Teddy pulls Queen over to the sofa and sits on the arm while she stands in his arms in front of him. “I need to tell you something and I don't know where to begin.”
“Just say it. If you are in love with somebody else then just fuckin say it and stop trying to sugar coat bullshit.”
“What? You are the one that wants to leave me for Christian. Queen, I'm not in love with anybody but you. Hell, I've never been in love with anybody but you.”
“So what is it then? What's wrong?”
Teddy looks away from Queen and hesitates. He tries to find the right words to say. He turns back to her and confesses. “Miracle is pregnant and she thinks I'm the father.”
Queen bites her lips in an attempt to choke back words and tears. She looks like she's just been hit in her stomach by a mule. Words will not come.
“Queen, don't. Please don't cry again.” Teddy begs as he rubs her back and tries to comfort her. “I'm sorry. I know I fucked up big this time. I know you wanted kids. Queen I'm so sorry. I should have listened to you.”
“Miracle's pregnant? How is that possible?” Teddy doesn't answer. “I thought that it was over between you and Miracle a year ago.”
“Queen, what can I say? I'm sorry. Shit just happened.”
“Do you love her?”
“No, I like her, but I'm not in love with her.”
“But, you like her enough to have a relationship with her?”
“You don't understand. Baby, it's not like you think.”
“So, what? It's not a relationship, because that's what it sounds like. You told me that shit was over a year ago and now she's pregnant. How the hell is that possible, Bear?”
“Queen, come on. You know that I love you. It's not a relationship. Miracle and I are just good friends, that's it. You're the only woman I've ever loved. You know that right?”
“I don't know what I know anymore. But, I know that I can't do this. I deserve better than this. It's one thing to put up with the one night stands, but there's no way that I'm going to deal with baby mama drama. Especially not from Miracle, that big tooth bitch! She’s probably pregnant by Bugs Bunny if anybody.”
