Monster In The Shadows: A stand-alone dark romance, page 17
“Fuck me,” I tell him
His head snaps up to look into my eyes.
“I don’t need gentle, Donovan. I need you. The real you. I need to know what you can give me.”
He growls and claims my mouth with his. “Do you know what you’re asking?”
I nod.
He stands, his eyes darkening.
“Take your clothes off,” he demands.
I stand and wiggle out of my jeans and panties. Donovan doesn’t help. He just stays where he is and takes in my body, his eyes roaming up and down my curves. I pull the black tank top off and quickly undo my bra so that I’m standing in front of him, completely exposed.
“I know who you are. I know what you are. And I’m yours,” I tell him, waiting for his next direction.
He stares at me for a moment, then pulls his shirt off. His abs flex, and I lick my lips and squeeze my thighs together.
Donovan notices. “Legs apart, sweetheart. I’ll take care of you soon enough.”
I do as I’m told, taking in a deep breath.
He unbuttons his pants and pulls them and his briefs off at the same time. I gulp at the sight of his fully naked body.
“Like what you see?” he asks, stroking himself.
Fuck yes, I do. I want to touch him. I want to taste him.
“Lie down, Paige. I’m going to show you what I’m capable of.”
I follow his directions, and the moment I’m on the bed, he pounces.
His lips go straight for my breast, pulling my nipple into his mouth. I can’t help but arch my back; his tongue feels so amazing.
He kisses down my body, licking, sucking, and nipping as he goes. When he gets to my hip, he pauses.
“I can’t wait to taste you. Is it going to live up to my fantasies?”
I don’t have time to answer before his mouth is on me, and only moans escape my lips.
“Fuck,” I hiss out when he pulls my bundle of nerves into his mouth, biting gently.
“You taste so fucking good, baby.” He pauses before inserting a finger inside me.
He curls it, and I throw my head back at the sensations coursing through my body. Adding another finger, he starts to pump them faster.
“Come for me, baby. Show me what your first orgasm at the hands of someone else is like,” he tells me before sucking on my clit again.
I scream as I begin to come. The sensation starts at my center, but quickly races through my entire body. Goosebumps cover my skin, and I feel like I’m on fire. Donovan continues to suck as the sensation grows more and more, and I can’t help but squeeze his head between my knees.
I’ve made myself come before, but it’s nothing like this. This is intense and all-consuming, and I want more.
He begins to slow, allowing me to come down from my high.
“Wow,” I say when he comes up to kiss me.
“You haven’t even gotten to the best part yet. But fuck, that was the hottest thing I’ve ever seen.” He kisses me again, hard, his tongue taking no time to find mine.
He grabs a condom, and for some reason the memory of the other girl’s moans fills my head. Tears quickly come to my eyes, and I close them tight.
“What’s wrong?” Donovan asks.
I shake my head, wanting the memory to disappear. “Will you cheat on me again?”
I know the last time wasn’t really cheating since we weren’t really a couple, but it doesn’t make it hurt any less.
“I will never touch another woman as long as I have you. Last time was a mistake. I’m so sorry.” He kisses me gently.
I nod. “Then take me.”
He grins and slowly slides his cock into me, taking his time so my body can get used to his girth.
“My God, you are tight,” he hisses as he gradually goes in deeper.
Gently, he works his way in and out of me until his cock is fully inside my wet pussy. The pain isn’t as bad as I thought it would be. Maybe it’s because he’s taken his time to get me ready. All these girls talk about their first times being miserable, but it’s usually because they’re with teenage boys who don’t know what they are doing. Donovan is not a boy. He’s all man, and I’m all his.
He lifts my legs onto his shoulders and starts to pick up speed. I can already feel my walls getting ready to convulse again. He curses, feeling it too, and pulls out.
I pout, and he chuckles.
“Don’t worry, babe. I’m nowhere near done, I just can’t take it slow anymore and I want to see what you look like when I fuck you from behind. Roll to your stomach. Ass up and hands behind your back.”
I take a deep breath and move to my knees, placing my face on the mattress and hands behind my back. Donovan ruffles in a drawer and I’m curious as to what he is getting when cold, soft leather touches my skin.
“These cuffs are cushioned, so they shouldn’t leave marks. I don’t want to hurt you; I just want to show you how it feels to lose control.”
I nod into the mattress, excitement coursing through my body. After the cuffs are secure, Donovan slides back into me, this time going all the way in with one thrust.
I huff out a breath, loving how full I feel.
“Fuck, your ass is amazing,” he growls, slapping it gently. “I can’t wait until the day I get to actually take you here.”
My eyes widen at the admission. I’m not entirely sure how I feel about that.
Grabbing my hips with just enough pressure, he starts fucking me hard, each thrust bringing me closer to my next orgasm.
He lets go of my hips, and with one hand on my shoulder and the other on the cuffs, he pulls me up so he can bite my neck while still thrusting in and out of me.
“I’ve never had a weakness before, but you are one. I don’t care what anyone thinks. I’m never letting you go again.”
Reaching around my body, he presses against my nerves, and we come apart at the same time.
“Next time, you ask to come,” he growls in my ear.
“Bite me,” I whisper, completely out of breath.
He bites my neck, and I laugh.
Slowly, he lowers me to the bed and undoes the handcuffs.
“I’ll be right back,” he says against my lips before kissing me gently.
I don’t move the entire time he’s gone. I just focus on my breathing and the slight bite of pain between my legs.
“You are so fucking hot,” Donovan says.
I move my head and see him stalking toward me, his dick starting to harden again.
“Wasn’t once good enough?” I ask before a yawn breaks from my lips, and I quickly cover it with my hand.
“No amount of time will ever be enough with you,” he says, like he’s confessing his darkest secret.
Taking a warm cloth, he slowly cleans between my legs. When he touches my center, I flinch. I didn’t realize how sore I was until just now.
“It will be sore for a little bit, but hopefully not too long, because I plan on being inside you a lot,” he says, grinning at me.
I yawn again, and he pulls the covers over me.
“Sleep well,” he says, and starts to walk away.
“Don’t go,” I say in a small voice.
I’ve spent so many nights alone, and I just want to be held again. Like he did the night he scared the shit out of me.
He climbs into the bed and pulls me into his arms. “Thank you for coming back to me.”
“I’m yours as long as you continue to be honest with me,” I tell him. “Lie to me again, and I’m gone forever.”
He nods against me and kisses my neck.
For the first time in what feels like forever, I don’t cry myself to sleep. Instead, I drift off peacefully, in the arms of the man who owns every part of me.
“How many curlers are you going to put into my hair?” I ask Leanne as she pulls my hair and inserts another hot curler.
“As many as it takes. Why do you have so much hair?”
I shrug. “I got it from my mama.”
“I’m so proud of you, and thank you so much for inviting me to your pinning ceremony,” Leanne says, rolling another piece of my hair.
“I’m still shocked that nursing school is done. Now I just have to take the state test and I’ll officially be a nurse.” I smile at her.
“Do you wish your mom was here right now?” she asks, knowing me better than I know myself.
I nod and blink back a tear that’s threatening to burst from my eye. I close them for a moment and take a deep breath.
“She was my everything. The day we found out she had cancer, it was like I got kicked in my stomach. I couldn’t breathe. I felt like I was drowning with no way out. You are one of the only reasons I’m still here today, and I’m so honored to have you pinning me today.”
“Save it for your speech,” Leanne says, blinking back her own tears.
Once we’re ready, Sway and Donovan pick us up to drive us to the pinning ceremony. About a block away, Donovan pulls over and parks. He and Sway both get out, helping Leanne and I out of the backseat.
“Text me when you’re done,” Sway says, kissing Leanne’s cheek.
I know they say it’s just sex, but he looks at her like there is no one else around. And she hasn’t slept with anyone since they started seeing each other, and that is not like her. She doesn’t do monogamy. So, I can’t help thinking there’s something more between them.
Donovan takes my face in his hands and brings his lips to mine. Electricity sparks, just like every time he kisses me.
“I wish I was coming with you, but I know this is something you want to share with Leanne. I just hate leaving you alone.”
I kiss him back, pulling him closer to me. “I’ll see you in a little bit.”
Leanne takes my hand and leads me toward the building. “Let’s go have a good time.”
I smile and nod.
“Paige Anderson, it’s your turn to give your speech and receive your pin.”
I stand and grab Leanne’s hand, leading her front and center.
“As a lot of you know, my mom was a doctor,” I start. “My entire life growing up, I knew I wanted to follow in her footsteps. I would practice on my teddy bears, making sure they never got sick or hurt, and if they did, I would make them all better.” I pause for a moment and take a deep breath. “One morning, when I was nineteen, we got the call that she was sick. The C word scared the shit out of me. At first, it was slow-moving. It didn’t grow at all in that first year, and I was hopeful that it would stay that way. Then it started growing. We monitored it for a while, and then started chemo. She did chemo for about a year and kicked cancer’s ass. I was gearing up to go to med school three years later than planned when it came back. This time, there was nothing they could do, and Mom was done with chemo. She was sick of feeling sick and just wanted to live her life. We had a year of amazing times together. You wouldn’t have even known she was sick. Then it really started to show, and six months later, she was gone.”
I pause and try to calm the tears streaming down my face.
“In those six months, I got to know some amazing nurses. They were the ones checking in on us, making sure we were as good as we could be. I knew then that I was still going to help people one day, but not as a doctor. And there was one person who always stood by my side through everything, the good and the bad. And that was Leanne. She’s the one who will be pinning me today. She has been the one studying with me and pushing me to be the best I could be. She holds me when I cry and is the best friend a girl could ask for. I would not be here today if it wasn’t for her.”
Everyone claps as Leanne attaches the pin to my dress. And then I pull her into my arms for a big hug.
“You did amazing,” she whispers into my ear.
“Ready to get home?” Leanne asks.
I nod. “I’m so glad the guys agreed to drive us tonight. It was nice to be able to unwind and have a couple of glasses of wine.”
“It’s nice having a personal chauffeur,” she giggles, pulling out her phone to text Sway. “He says they’ll be here in five.”
“Can we wait outside? I’m hot, and the cool air will feel nice.”
“Totally. It was way too stuffy in there.”
“Help!” a little boy yells from the alley. “Help! My dog is trapped. I was walking him, and his leash got stuck. Please help.”
“Let’s go help him,” Leanne says.
She starts pulling on my hand, but a feeling in my gut is telling me to stay put.
“I don’t know,” I whisper.
She rolls her eyes. “Seriously, it’ll only take us a minute. You’re the one who always wants to help people.”
I follow her, and the second we get down the alley, I know it was a mistake. Four large men are standing there with guns pointed at us.
“Good job, Jimmy,” the one with a scar over his right eye says, handing the boy some money.
“I’m so sorry,” Leanne whispers.
I grab her hand and squeeze. I just hope the guys can find us soon. If anyone will be able to save us, it’s them.
“Where are they?” I ask, looking around for where the girls should be.
Sway grinds his teeth and puts the car into park. We both get out and look around. The girls are nowhere to be found. We walk down the alley, and I see Paige’s earrings smashed on the ground, along with two broken cellphones. Whoever took them isn’t an idiot.
My phone starts to ring, and I answer the blocked call.
“You want me dead, I hear?”
“Who is this?” I ask, though I already know it’s Hector.
“Someone who’s a lot smarter than you. You’ve gone soft, Maxwell,” he says, addressing me by my last name. “Just know that when your girl screams tonight, it will be my dick making her come, not yours.”
He hangs up, and I let out a roar. I want to throw my phone, but I need it functioning, so I can’t.
“Hector has our girls. He’s forcing our hand,” I grit out.
Sway places his hand on my shoulder. “You need to calm down. We have to think of a game plan.”
“How can I calm down? We need to go to Hector and blow his fucking brains out!” I growl.
People walking by start to slow, and Sway starts walking to the car.
“I’m pissed too, man, but we have to think this through. They want us to be irrational. But we can’t just run in there with guns blazing. We’ll be dead before we get anywhere near him. Now is the time to take out the guts. We still have to wait to chop off the head.”
“Leanne clearly means nothing to you,” I spit out.
Sway growls, grabbing my collar. “Watch your mouth, Don. You aren’t my boss, you’re my friend, but I’ll kill you if I have to. If we go in without a plan, our girls are dead. I know you aren’t thinking straight these days, but I need the old Don.”
I want to throw something. Stab someone. Blow someone’s brains out. I need to release these emotions.
No, what I need is to get Paige back.
I finally had her back in my arms for a second, and now she’s gone again, this time just because the man I want to kill got the jump on me. Again. Fitting, really. The man who ended up bringing her into my life is now the one who took her from me.
I hate being out of control. I was finally feeling like myself again, and now this bullshit had to happen.
“What’s the plan?” I finally ask when we get into the car.
“I’m thinking,” Sway bites out. “I’ll call Mark and see if he can round up the guys. Even though he’s expecting us tonight, we have to figure out a way to surprise him. That’s our only shot.”
“Whatever we have to do. I can’t lose her again.”
“I know, Don.”
I want to storm into Hector’s house and put a bullet in his head. Watch the blood drain from his body. But Sway is right. I just don’t know what other option we have that doesn’t end with us being the ones with bullets in our heads.
“My men are ready to go,” Mark says, leaning back in his chair. “They did a drive-by and all of Hector’s main men are where they would normally be. They aren’t with the girls.”
“Did you get visuals of the girls?” I ask, trying not to sound like a lunatic.
“No. We think they’re at Hector’s house, though. There are more of the low scum there than usual.”
I grind my teeth. “Whatever the plan is that you came up with, we’ll go along with it, since I’m thinking you won’t like mine. But I get to kill Hector.”
Both Sway and Mark nod.
“As long as you don’t go rogue, I don’t see why you can’t be the one to blow his brains out,” Mark tells me.
“Mark’s guys are already set up to take down Hector’s men. We just have to send the message.”
“My right-hand brothers will be coming with us to get your girls. They’re the only ones off-limits. My brothers know what they look like, but anyone else in that house is fair game if they get in the way. We don’t want to kill women, but if they get stupid, I’m sorry.”
I nod. Some of those whores feel like the men actually love them and would even die for them. I don’t like it, but I want my woman back, and no one will stand in the way. Not even another woman.
“We want to sneak in the back and try to get the girls safe before we start killing everyone,” Sway says, his eyes directly on me.
“I told you that you wouldn’t like my plan,” I grumble, making Sway laugh.
“He caught the love bug,” Sway says to Mark, who smirks at him.
“Don’t act like you haven’t. I saw how pissed you were when you stormed into my club. You wouldn’t act like that over some lay. Even if she was good pussy.”
Sway glares, and Mark starts laughing hard.
“Hey, I ain’t judging,” he says. “Me and my old lady have been together for twelve years. I get what it’s like. Anyway, my guys are already at the house; all the entrances are being guarded pretty heavily. But I think we could sneak in through the basement window.”
I take a minute to think. My emotions have clouded my thoughts, but I think well under pressure. I always have.
“Where is Hector’s best guy right now?” I ask.
