Works of Ellen Wood, page 701
“Miss Neville makes a capital groom. I suppose she has been accustomed to that sort of thing.”
“I never heard Miss Neville say an unkind word of any one,” was the severe rejoinder.
“I shall hate myself for that false move,” thought Frances. “I must try and hide my feelings better,” and she raised her foot to his knee, but even while she did so, a scream from Julia made him spring to his feet.
But he was too late; his horse was plunging and rearing violently, while Amy’s weak arm seemed barely sufficient to curb and control him, although she was trying her utmost to pacify and quiet him.
Charles took it all in at a glance.
“I shall love that girl in spite of myself,” he said, as he sprang across the frozen surface to her side.
How tenderly anxious he was, even his voice slightly trembled as he asked the question:
“Are you hurt?”
No, she was not. But her hand dropped helplessly to her side as he drew the reins from it.
“This is the wonderfully quiet horse,” cried Julia. “I never saw such behaviour; astonishing in one of his meek temper, but of course this is the first time he has ever been guilty of such tricks.”
“How did it happen?” asked Charles, of Amy.
“I scarcely know, it was all so sudden.”
“But something must have frightened him?”
“Yes; I fancy the sound of a horse’s feet galloping by excited him, and one of the hounds rushed to his side, and then he became almost beyond my control.”
His sorrow was expressed on his face, and was more expressive than any words could be. His regrets — but before he could speak those, Amy had bowed, wished him good morning, and was gone.
The sorrow faded away from his face; a vexed look succeeded. Why had she left him so hastily? Could she not have spared him a few moments wherein to express his regret. Was she angry? No, he could not think so, her temper appeared unruffled, and her face wore its usual soft and sweet expression.
As Frances advanced to his side he impatiently sprang on his horse and cantered off, but Frances thought as she stood listening to his horse’s receding steps on the hard frosty ground, that ere long the canter sounded in her ears far more like a gallop.
Some twenty minutes later, as Amy was returning home through the lane, her attention was drawn towards a horseman going at headlong speed across the distant fields. The children wondered who it could be, but Amy never wondered at all; she knew well enough.
“It is your uncle,” she said.
CHAPTER XIII.
THE MYSTERIOUS LIGHT.
“Still further on she crept with trembling feet,
With hope a friend, with fear a foe to meet;
And there was something fearful in the sight
And in the sound of what appear’d to-night;
For now, of night and nervous terror bred,
Arose a strong and superstitious dread;
She heard strange noises, and the shapes she saw
Of fancied beings bound her soul in awe.”
Crabbe.
But few of the party returned home in the very best of spirits, or appeared to have enjoyed their afternoon’s pleasure on the ice. Charles scarcely raised his eyes during dinner, or addressed a word to any one. Anne was infinitely disgusted at his inattention and dulness, having made up her mind during Mr. Hall’s absence to thoroughly enjoy herself, being in no fear of a look from those earnest eyes of his, as she rattled away almost heedless of what fell from her lips, or hazarded trifling, thoughtless remarks.
Frances’ face, if possible, wore a more scornful expression than usual; she was inwardly chafing at her want of tact and judgment in giving way to temper, and allowing Charles to see that Amy was the cause of it. That thought vexed her proud spirit beyond measure, and although to all appearance she was calm and self-possessed, yet inwardly her heart trembled with angry passions, and her mind was filled with forebodings and dim shadowings of the future and what it would reveal to her.
Was it possible she could be supplanted by another, and that other no proud beauty like herself, but a governess! The thought was gall and wormwood to her. It was not only her pride that was touched. No; as I have said before, she loved her cousin with all the love of that proud, and to all appearance, cold heart. Should he not love her in return? Yes, he must. He should never be Amy’s. Never! And she pressed her lips together and contracted the delicately-pencilled brows at the bare supposition. She would not believe — could not — that in so short a time his heart was another’s. It was merely a liking, not love, and it must be her care to prevent the latter.
What right had he in the school-room? What was he doing there when she entered so inopportunely?
Ah! she had never guessed that secret yet, or found out the theft of the “Holy work,” or her heart would have been even sorer than it was, and her thoughts more bitter and revengeful towards Amy.
Frances had never been thwarted; all had as yet gone smoothly with her; the bare possibility of the one great object in life — her love — being unvalued only made her the more determined to succeed. She had no softness, no gentleness of nature; her love was fierce and strong — headlong in its course; like a torrent it swept along, and carried away all and everything that impeded its course. There was no calm, no sunshine, no breaking of the heavy clouds; all was storm — would be until the end might be gained, and then — even then, there was a question if the troubled, angry spirit would be quiet, or at rest, or ever satisfied.
Charles did not re-enter the drawing room after dinner. “Gone for a smoke or prefers the company of Bob,” was Alfred’s ungracious rejoinder when his sister questioned him; so retiring to an ottoman in a far-off corner, Frances wrapt herself up in her thoughts, or, as Anne remarked, made herself as disagreeable as she could by refusing to join in any one game or amusement proposed. After fruitless attempts to strike up a flirtation with somebody, Anne walked off to bed, thinking a quiet chat with her sister was preferable to the dulness below.
As she reached the first landing on her way up stairs, a gust of cold wind from the sudden opening of the hall door made her pause and look round; and presently Mr. Hall’s voice reached her: very pleasant and cheery she thought it sounded, and she could not resist the temptation of peeping over, just to see how he looked after his cold ride.
Yes, there he was, close by the fire, full in the light of the lamp, shaking himself like a large dog, his thick hair in a shocking tangled mass, but this was nothing unusual.
Anne smiled. “What a figure he is!” thought she, “such a great unwieldy creature!” and then half turned, as if to retrace her steps, but woman-like, fearful lest he should guess why she returned, magnanimously went on, but on reaching her own room, no Julia was there to unburden her vexations to, or talk herself into a more congenial mood with.
“She plays me this trick every night,” said she, taking off her dress and throwing a shawl round her shoulders; then stirring up the fire into a blaze, she sat down and reviewed in her own mind the events of the day and the evening’s dulness.
Some minutes slipped by; and then, whether she grew tired of being alone in that large room or vexed at her sister’s prolonged absence she determined on going in quest of her.
Springing up, away she went to Miss Tremlow’s room, and receiving no reply to her repeated knocks for admission, cautiously opened the door and went in, expecting to find her sister.
Miss Tremlow was disrobed for the night, and had tied a large yellow handkerchief round her head, the only symptom of a cap being the huge border overshadowing her small thin face like a pall; while one or two curl-papers — Miss Tremlow wore her hair in ringlets — made themselves guiltily perceptible here and there. Anne burst out laughing.
“My goodness, Miss Tremlow! how extraordinary you look,” exclaimed she. “Do you always dress yourself out in this style when you have a cold?”
“A cold, Miss Anne? I have no cold.”
“Then why on earth have you decked yourself out with that handkerchief. Oh! I know, you are afraid of thieves, and think the sight will frighten them. Well, you are not far wrong there.”
“No such thing; I am subject to rheumatism, so take every precaution against it,” replied Miss Tremlow stiffly, not exactly knowing whether to feel offended or not.
“Of course, quite right,” replied Anne, not daring to raise her eyes until Miss Tremlow turned her back, and then the corner of the bright handkerchief stood out so oddly over the high-crowned cap, while a border almost as wide and stiffly starched as the front one drooped from under it, that the incentive to mirth was irresistible, and Anne laughed again.
“I cannot help it, indeed I cannot,” said she, as the lady’s now angry face met her gaze. “It is of no use looking so vexed, you should not make such a figure of yourself.”
“You had better go to bed, Miss Anne,” said Miss Tremlow sharply, opening the door.
And very submissively Anne went out of the room, but instead of going to bed, bent her steps towards the school-room, and there found the object of her search; her sister with Miss Neville.
“Such a scrape as you have led me into, Mag,” began she, still laughing, and drawing a chair near the two round the fire. “Of course I thought you were in that queer sick creature’s room. What a fright she has made of herself with her head tied up in that yellow handkerchief, enough to make any one laugh.”
“I hope, Anne, you did not,” replied her sister.
“Then hope no such thing, for I laughed outright, and so would Miss Neville, I am sure. I defy even that sober Mr. Hall to have stood it,” and again Anne laughed at the bare recollection. “It’s all your fault, Mag, had you gone quietly to bed as you ought, I should never like the Caliph have roamed abroad in search of adventure.”
“Why did you come up to bed so soon?” asked Julia.
“So soon! I am sure I never spent so dull an evening; I suppose people’s hearts were frozen as well as their toes with coming in contact with the ice. As to Frances, she behaved abominably, and turned the cold-shoulder to everybody. If it is to be like this every evening, I would far rather have the ‘short commons’ of home than the dainty fare here.”
“For shame, Anne! What will Miss Neville think?”
“Think that I am in a bad temper, that’s all. Isabella might have tried to amuse us a little; but no, she only thought of self, sitting so cosily flirting with Mr. Vavasour. How I do dislike that man! I am sure he is no good, and no one seems to know who he is. I do wish that handsome Captain Styles were here. Do you remember last year, what fun we used to have? We never had a dull evening then,” and Anne sighed, and looked so comically sad that Julia and Amy both laughed.
“It is just as well he is not here,” replied the former. “And as for Mr. Vavasour, everyone knows how intimate old Mr. Vavasour and Mr. Linchmore’s father were.”
“Yes; but that gives no clue as to who young Mr. Vavasour is.”
Who Vavasour’s parents were had never transpired. All he himself knew was, that he had been left an orphan at an early age, and entrusted to Mr. Vavasour. The utmost care had been bestowed on his education; no pains, no money had been spared.
Mr. Vavasour was an eccentric, passionate old bachelor, fond and proud of his adopted son, or, as some supposed, his own son; but this latter was mere idle surmise. He was certainly treated and regarded by the servants and even friends as such; and yet they had not a shadow of proof that he was so.
It must not be imagined that Robert rested calmly, or made no attempts to obtain a clue to his history, and clear up the doubt under which his proud, impatient spirit chafed. He did. He battled and waged war at times against the other’s will, when the weight became more intolerable than he could bear; but only to meet with stern rebuffs, and a will as determined as his own. In that one particular, the two resembled each other; not otherwise. In outward form they were unlike.
It was after one of these battles, in which as usual Robert was vanquished, that wounded to the quick by the other’s violence, and seeing the hopelessness of ever moving that iron will, Robert left the only home he had ever known, and went abroad.
After that nothing went right. The old man fretted, grew more and more exacting to those about him, and gave way more frequently to violent fits of rage. There was no Robert to act as mediator, or control and subdue him; and few were surprised to hear of his almost sudden death. He bequeathed not only his forgiveness but his wealth to Robert, who only returned in time to follow him to the grave.
He sought amongst the old man’s papers for some document to throw a light on his birth. There was none. The only letter — if such it could be called — bearing at all on the subject was addressed to his lawyer, and ran thus —
“This is to certify that Robert Vavasour is not my son, as some fools as well as wise men suppose. The secret of his birth was never made known to me. He was entrusted to my care as a helpless orphan, under a solemn promise that I would never reveal by whom. That promise I have faithfully kept, and will, with God’s help, keep to the end; believing it can answer no good purpose to reveal it, but only entail much unhappiness and sorrow.”
He was not the old man’s son then. There was comfort in that, small as it was: perhaps after all there was no shame attached to him. It was too late to remedy now his disbelief of Mr. Vavasour’s word, and the angry manner in which they had parted, but it pained and grieved him deeply; until now that he was dead, Robert had never thought how much he had loved the only friend he had ever known.
Perhaps the person who had entrusted him to old Mr. Vavasour was still alive, perhaps even now watched over him. He thought it could not be his mother; she would not have left him so long without some token of her love. He would still hope that some day his birth might be no secret, but as clear as day: yet it weighed on his mind, and made him appear older than he was, and more reserved; and his manner at times was cold and distant, with no fancy for the light talk and every-day trifles passing around him.
No wonder Anne disliked him. Here was a something which checked her thoughtlessness far more decidedly than poor Mr. Hall’s sober face. The one she had no fear of, while the other’s sometimes sarcastic look annoyed and vexed her, and made her anxious to escape into a far corner away from him, whenever she saw that peculiar curl of the lip betokening so utter a contempt for what she was saying. No wonder she tried to prejudice Amy against him; her pride having been wounded ever since the day she thought he had neglected her so shamefully, and walked out with Miss Neville, leaving her to fare as best she could with Mr. Hall.
Seeing Julia determined on taking his part, she turned to Amy.
“You do not like him, do you, Miss Neville? I am sure Charles is worth twenty such men as Mr. Vavasour.”
“I know so little of either.”
“Oh, nonsense! It is a very safe reply, no doubt, but it will not do. My cousin was here half the summer.”
“Only a fortnight the first time he came; and the second visit he made, I was at Ashleigh, at home.”
“Quite long enough for you to find out what a good-for-nothing, kind-hearted creature he is. Besides, for the fortnight you had the field all to yourself, and after that advantage ought not to allow another to bowl you out.”
“How you do talk, Anne; I am sure Miss Neville does not understand one half you are saying, you go on at such a rate.”
“Of course I do; what is the use of sitting like this?” and she clasped her two hands together on her lap and twirled her thumbs. “Do tell me what you two say to one another when I am not here, for if Mag comes every night, and I suppose she does not go to that sick-body’s room, seeing she dresses herself up in a style enough to frighten half a dozen children, with the belief she is the veritable ‘Bogy,’ you surely do not sit like two Quakeresses, without a word, waiting for the spirit to move you. Positively, Miss Neville, I look upon Mag’s coming here as an invasion of my rights, since I am left shivering in bed, and frightened to death for fear of ghosts. They do say the house is haunted; and once I nearly fainted when a coal dropped out of the fire into the fender. I really thought the ghost had come, and durst not emerge from under the bedcloths until I was pretty nearly smothered.”
“You surely are not afraid of ghosts, Miss Bennet?”
“Oh, but I am, though, ghosts, hobgoblins, thieves, and every other existing and non-existing horror; and if we are to talk of such things, I vote for the door being locked. Do stir the fire, and turn up the lamp. There, it does look rather less gloomy now. But how cold it is!”
“Cold?” said Julia, “I am as warm as a toast.”
“No doubt of it Mag, so cosily as you are wrapped up in ‘joint-stock property.’ I wonder you are not ashamed to let me see you looking so comfortable, even your feet tucked up too. Would you believe it, Miss Neville, ‘joint-stock property’ is that dressing-gown, and belongs to both of us, hence its name, but Mag coolly walks off with it in this most shameful way every night.”
“Perhaps she thinks you do not want it.”
“I suppose she does; but having, as I say a share in it, I think I might be allowed to wear it sometimes.”
“By all means, Anne. Why not?” said her sister.
“Why not? You shall hear, Miss Neville, and judge whether I complain without reason. You must know Mag and I have an allowance, and we found out we could not get on without a dressing-gown; so, as we are neither of us doomed to gruel and hot water at the same time, we agreed to club together and have a joint property one, since which the number of colds Miss Julia has had is quite unaccountable and shocking. I declare to goodness the gown — look when I will — is never on the peg, but for ever round her shoulders; however, it certainly will be my turn next, for I never felt so frozen in all my life. There!” said she, sneezing, or pretending to do so, “what do you think of that signal? does it not portend stormy weather ahead? And now cease laughing, and let us go to bed, for I am awfully sleepy, and tired into the bargain; quite done up.”
