Show Me You Care, page 9
"It's funny how your first baby mother is the cause for all these problems," he said, staring me in my face.
"They ain't got shit to do with me; everything was cool until I starting fucking with your sister." Jordyn sucked her teeth. It was true. The moment Jordyn came into our lives drama came our way.
"So now you are blaming my sister?" he asked, standing up like he was about to do something.
"I didn't say that, but the truth of the matter is before I talked to your sister drama was not even in my life." He looked at me and smirked.
"You one dumb motherfucker. You didn't even know that the lady TaKiera was calling mommy was her grandmother. You didn't even know she was fucking with someone else the whole time. You want to talk about my sister brought drama to your life, but she stood by you every step of the way. When them cats broke in ya’ crib, who handled it? I'll wait!" I didn't have an answer because he was telling the truth. I didn't feel the need to respond. Jordyn knew where we stood. Our relationship was nobody’s business but ours.
"Yeah, okay, I'll be that but that's still my girl at the end of the day," I said, pointing at Jordyn.
"No, I'm not! Don't think the birth of my daughters changed what you did or where we stand. You don't love me, Trey. You never have. We were in lust and it resulted in my daughters." Maybe she was right. Maybe I didn't love her at first but I loved her now. She was the mother of my kids.
"What are you saying, Jordyn?"
"I'm saying Trey you never loved me, ever! Yeah, you might love me now but you didn't love me a couple months ago. Yeah, it took me a while to realize that I only fucked with you because you acted like you cared." I was broken hearing her say that to me. I did care but my heart wasn't in it. But after seeing her birth my daughters I had no choice but to care. I cared for her because she gave me my seeds.
Chapter 19:
I sat in my brother's house as I tended to my crying babies. Trey had gone back to Atlanta after our little discussion. I knew he wanted us to be more but why would I waste my time doing that again? He showed me he cared so I tried to act like it was love. I thought it was really love until I realized he always went back to TaKiera. I held him down while he was in a coma and I still became the one to blame. I couldn't take the blame for everything ‘cause it all lead back to his girl and her mother.
Nine had already erased her family tree, killing off family members that I hadn't killed already. He even started killing off Star's family so she knew it was real. My mother was supposed to be coming to Miami this week but I told her to stay in L.A. I didn't want her in harm’s way.
"Jordyn!" Nine called out my name.
"What you screaming for?"
"It's time to go back to the A and get rid of the head!" Walking back to my room, looking down at my babies, I knew everything I was doing was for them.
"They are going to be good, Jordyn. I got you and them.” I didn’t want to take my babies to Atlanta not knowing the outcome of this war. But reluctantly I agreed to go. This shit needed to be over a long time ago.
I headed to my room to pack. I got India ready while Nine dressed Kenya. I walked up on a sleeping Shyla. She looked mad as hell when I woke her up. It was crazy how we were turning into the female versions of our fathers. For the first time I actually smoked a Blunt with her. My ass was stressed and needed a stress reliever.
Jayden:
The house had been crazy with us going to funeral after funeral for family members we never knew we had. I watched my mom slowly deteriorate. I could see her true colors coming out. After Dad found out that she cheated on him with one of his enemies, he did what I never thought he would do. He called it quits with her and went to L.A. to be with Tinker. I knew he would be happy for the first time in forever. I realized that my father only stayed in Atlanta for his kids and we were all grown now. Shit, he had three grandkids already and another one on the way. I had to figure out a way to tell Shyla that Treasure was back in Atlanta and that we had our own little apartment in Buckhead. She was a great mother and I was happy where I was, but I was also happy with Shyla. I had decisions to make before I saw them again. Hearing the doorbell ring, I saw Kayden and Trey standing at the door and I knew some shit was wrong. Kayden walked right past me to go hang with Ivy and Treasure, leaving Trey and I alone to have a talk, something we hadn’t done since he got with Jordyn.
“What’s going on, Trey?” He ran his hands over his face.
“I’m stressed out. Like I can’t understand where I went wrong. I love Jordyn but I love TaKiera the same way. I feel like Chris Brown when he said he loved two girls. Only difference is I have my daughters involved now. But with all this shit going on I don’t think Jordyn is going to even look my way now,” he said with sadness in his voice. “Look at it this way; we both got some shit to handle.”
“Listen, that’s my little sister. She’s hardheaded, bruh. If she thinks she got it she is not going to call you and ask for help. You made your choice when you laid in bed with TaKiera the same day she left,” I said, staring him in his face. He just blinked and wiped his hand over his face.
Shyla:
Arriving in Atlanta, I was happy to be able to finally go see my man Jayden. I know Jordyn wasn’t going to go to the house with me, so I allowed her and Nine to drop me off, only for Kayden to tell me he moved out the house. I was confused since he told me he would never move out of his parents home. I called Jordyn and told her to come back and get me; I met her at the end of the driveway. I guess Nine sped all the way to the hotel ‘cause she was alone. I guess she had Nine babysitting like the good brother he is. I laughed to myself at the thought of Nine watching the twins while they screamed and cried.
“So where was Jayden?”
“He moved into a condo by Atlantic Station!”
“You want to swing by there?” I nodded my head yeah, although something was telling me that some shit was going to go down.
Pulling up, I threw my hair in a ponytail because I couldn’t shake the feeling some shit was going to happen. I looked over at Jordyn and she followed suit doing the same thing. We walked up to the door. I watched Jordyn put her hand over the peephole as she knocked repeatedly on the door. I could hear Ivy crying in the background and knew for sure we were at the right apartment. Once the door opened I was taken back to see Ivy in the arms of some lady who was pregnant. I looked at Jordyn, hoping that she didn’t see the hurt in my eyes.
“Where is Jayden?” Jordyn asked with attitude.
“And who are you to be looking for my man?” I just watched the scene play out. There wasn’t anything to say. She confirmed what I already knew; he couldn’t wait for me to make my dreams come true. He had to find someone who wouldn’t mind having him do for them.
“Bitch, I’m his sister. Now go get my brother. Matter of fact…” Jordyn pushed past the girl. All I could do was look at the lady in front of me. “JAYDEN, BRING YA’ ASS HERE!” As soon as the words left her mouth he was running down the stairs. He looked as if he saw a ghost when he looked in my face.
“Jordyn…Shyla…what y’all doing back already? I thought you wasn’t coming back for a couple more months.” I just looked at those dark green eyes and wanted to slap the shit out of him. “Shy?” he said, stepping closer to me. “Look, I ain’t want you to find out like this. I’m so sorry, Shy!” I couldn’t hold in the tears anymore as I felt one roll down my cheek. I looked at Jayden one last time before walking out of the house. It felt like the walls were caving in around me as I damn near ran to the car. I played the scene in my head over and over again and knew I should’ve held my ground and slapped the dimples out of his cheeks. I laid my head onto the seat and allowed the tears to fall. I hated wasting my time. The sound of Beyoncé’s “Me, Myself, and I” filled the car and I sang along.
Me, myself and I, that's all I got in the end
That's what I found out and there ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gon' be my own best friend
Chapter 20:
I couldn’t believe my brother did Shy like that, and got back with his baby mother and got her pregnant on top of that. I was so ready to slap the shit out of him. I was over all of this bullshit, as I pulled into the parking lot of the Waffle House. I hadn’t been here since I worked here almost a year ago. I grabbed my twins’ stroller out of the trunk and placed them both in there. I walked in with Shy right behind me.
“How you feel about what happened the other day?” I asked, knowing she was most likely hurt but wouldn’t tell me that.
“I’m good. My father told me not to worry about a nigga and that’s what I’m doing; not worrying about a nigga.” I nodded my head. Shit, her father would probably beat Jayden’s ass for the bullshit he pulled.
“Speaking of your father, how is he?” I asked as our waiter walked up on us. We placed our orders and started back our conversation. “Like I said, how is your father doing?”
“He’s good. Him and Mom are in Paris vacationing, according to him,” she said with a smile on her face. I knew she was happy her parents got back together. I heard a familiar voice and knew shit was about to get real. In walked Jayden and Treasure with Trey and TaKiera. I looked at Shy and we busted out laughing.
“Damn, you can’t go nowhere in the A without running into this Lord of the Ring ass bitch,” Shy said, causing me to laugh harder. Our food came out and we started to eat. I looked down at my sleeping princess Kenya, while India was wide-awake looking for food. Pulling out one of the bottles I made, I fed it to her while I attempted to eat. Looking up, I saw Trey and Jayden trying to make their way over to us. I kicked Shy under the table and all we could do was ignore the stares from across the restaurant. I placed India on my shoulder and burped her, then started rocking her back to sleep. By then Trey and Jayden were standing at the table. I continued to rock India as Trey attempted to touch Kenya.
“Do not touch her with your dirty hand!” I said, making sure he heard me loud and clear.
“I can’t hold my kids now?!” he asked, raising his voice at me like I was some little ass kid.
“You definitely can, when you wash your hands and not while you see her peacefully sleeping. Last time I checked you’re not the one waking up in the middle of the night, so no you can’t hold my child while she’s in the middle of napping. Another thing, raise your voice at me again you’re going to be missing a tongue,” I said, rolling my eyes while placing a now sleeping India back in the stroller. They were still standing there staring in our faces. I let out a deep sigh and attempted not to slap the shit out of them. I looked over and could see TaKiera and Treasure heading over. I gave Shy a knowing look. Nothing but drama was about to go down. I let out a deep sigh and waited for the bullshit to happen, while I asked for the check.
“Aww, look at my stepdaughters,” TaKiera said as she tried to hold India. I got up from my seat and looked at this bitch like she was stupid.
“You trying to lose a hand or something?” I asked while rolling my eyes.
“Those are my MAN’S kids so I can hold them if I want to!” I laughed as I tried my hardest not to slap the shit out of her.
“They might be your man’s kids but touch them and I promise you they will find you in a ocean floating with no hands. You want to hold someone, how ‘bout you hold your son while trying to find his—” Shy put her hand over my mouth, knowing I was about to say some shit that would hurt both their feelings. I bumped past her as I pushed the stroller outside while Shy paid the check.
Trey:
I sat in the house getting cursed out by TaKiera for nothing. Ever since the Waffle House scene she’d been on me hard lately. I was tired of going through this shit. It was nothing but arguing over nothing.
“Trey, I got a question, why you didn’t stand up for me? I’m supposed to be your girl but you couldn’t even stand up for me.” I sighed out loud.
“Why would I stand up for you when you were in the wrong? You came over there trying to get her mad. No one told you to say anything or to act like you did. Those are my children, yes, but you know not to even look at them too long,” I said as I got out of the bed and started putting on my clothes. “A lot of the bullshit you go through is because you act like a fucking child. But you want me to stand up for that? You want me to respect that? You’re angry because you’re not on her level. Nothing about you turns me on anymore.” I got my keys off the dresser as TaKiera ran behind me.
“Trey, you don’t mean that? What about your son? What about us?”
“Did you just say what about my son? You mean your son! You allowed me to fall in love and raise that little boy and he’s not even mine. So ain’t no us and never been an us. We ain’t a family, TaKiera. We ain’t shit but exes and I barely want you to have that title!” I walked out of the apartment and headed to the car. I saw a black Toyota Camry ride past me with tinted windows. I watched one come down and spray the apartment with bullets. Before speeding off, I hopped out of the car and ran to open the door. I found TaKiera shot in her stomach. She looked me in my eyes. Her eyes were filled with tears.
“I’m sorry, Trey!” was the last thing she said before she blacked out and I felt a lone tear fall from my eyes.
TaKiera:
“Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us today, our daily bread, and forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one…” I recited the Lord’s Prayer over and over in my head. I couldn’t open my eyes or feel my body. All I could do was lay still and it was weird. All I could remember was Trey leaving and the bullets flying. I thanked God that my son was at Star’s house spending the weekend getting to know his real grandmother. I could only see darkness and hear the ambulance sirens. At least I was safe from whoever shot up the house. My gut was telling me it was Jordyn and if it was, I was going to take from her something that meant the most to her. I let my mind ease and drifted off towards happiness. What started off as a bright light slowly became dark and extremely hot. I am going to hell, I thought, and prayed that Lord forgave me for my sins although it seemed to be to late.
“We’re losing her!”
“She is losing too much blood!”
“Clear…Clear…Clear!”
Chapter 21:
I was in my hotel room trying to figure out what my next move would be. Star was smart and probably would have built an army by now, leaving me with only Shy and Nine on my side. I had no other reinforcements but I knew how to get some. Sneaking in my brother’s room, I dug through his stuff until I found his black book filled with the best hit men. I heard footsteps and saw Nine creep up behind me.
“What are you doing?” he asked, pissed
“I was looking for people that could help us. It’s only three of us against the army of people that Star has. We need help, Nine. That book has all the help we need!” I said, making sure I got my point across.
“I already handled back up, Jordyn. You just have to trust me. I got us.”
“I’m just nervous, that’s all, Nine,” I said as I went back to my room to see both of the twins sleep peacefully on my bed. Looking at my phone, I had about ten missed calls from Trey. I honestly missed him but I couldn’t deal with having to be in a love triangle. At times I cried myself to sleep or my heart hurt knowing that the twins would never have both their parents together. It was supposed to be different from how my mother and father’s relationship was. I heard a knock on my door and was surprised to see Trey on the other side.
“They’re asleep if you came to see them,” I said, referring to the twins.
“I miss you, Jordyn! I’m sorry that I put you through all this shit. I’m sorry that I let you down by continuing to go back to TaKiera. I’m sorry that I didn’t believe you when you said she was trying to bring me down. Jordyn, I apologize. Baby, I love you with all my heart.”
I could feel a tear fall down my face. I was conflicted. I didn’t know what to do with him at this moment. My head was telling me, Jordyn, don’t forgive him but my heart was telling me to give him another chance.
“JORDYN, say something to me, please.” I looked over my shoulder out the window and saw a bunch of guns drawn. I grabbed my daughters off the bed and looked at Trey.
“Trey, get down, now!” I screamed as bullets started to ring out. I made sure I shielded the twins as the shots continued to keep going. It felt like they were shooting forever. The cries of India and Kenya overpowered the sounds of gunshots. After about ten minutes of bullets flying, the shooting had finally subsided. I stood up with the twins still crying. Trey looked at me in horror.
“Jordyn, you’re bleeding!” As soon as he said that I passed out.
Trey:
I was scared out my ass. Jordyn was in surgery and her brother couldn’t figure out who organized the shooting. All things led to Star; if it was her she was going to have to die a slow painful death. I just prayed it didn’t ruin my relationship with Kayden and Jayden. I sat in the waiting room with a shaken up Shyla and a pissed off Nine. He paced back and forth while pushing the stroller that the twins had fallen asleep in. I looked at the time. It was three in the morning. The shooting happened at midnight. I was getting even more worried with the fact she’d been in surgery for three hours. I had called everybody including her parents. They were going to take Big Jay’s jet out here to be by her side when she got out of surgery. I couldn’t even sit still as we waited for the doctor. I looked at the door and Jayden was walking in with a stressed look on his face. He gave me a head nod and we all sat for about three more hours before the doctor came out.
“Family of Jordyn Brown?” the doctor said. We all walked up to him.
