Nightshade (Discarded Heroes), page 3
part #1 of Discarded Heroes Series
“Hey, how’s my favorite editor?”
She whirled around and felt the first ray of sunshine touch her day. “Lane.”
Propped against the divider, he held out a paper coffee cup with a recycled cardboard protector. “Two-pump mocha.” Winking, he grinned. “With caramel.”
Widening her eyes, she seized the cup. Held it up to her nose and savored the deliciously sweet aroma spiraling through the puncture in the lid. “Mm. How did you know I needed this?”
Lane slid onto the small chair inside her L-shaped desk. “I saw you head into Buck’s earlier.” He sipped from his own cup. “How’d that go?”
She shrugged.
“Did he swear to kill Max?”
“Yeah.”
“Should’ve seen him the day he got word about it.”
Sydney let out a sigh and ran a hand through her hair. Yawned.
“Tired? I thought you just had a week off.”
“Ha ha.” She wasn’t bothered by his teasing and knew she didn’t have to explain her stress-related exhaustion. He was one of the few who knew exactly what happened that night. Experienced firsthand what Max was capable of when enraged.
“Look … I …” He bent forward, elbows resting on his knees. “I feel responsible for the fight with Max last week. I—”
“No. Stop.” Sydney held up her hand. “You got caught in the middle. And I am the one who’s sorry for dragging you into my own little disaster. So.” She pursed her lips, faking courage she didn’t have. “Let’s leave it there.” Sorrow dug a hard line into her heart. One she vowed she’d never cross—the line between life with Max and life without. “He’s gone.” The words burned the back of her throat.
Lane dropped his gaze.
Sydney wouldn’t take the pity sitting down. “I needed to do it.” That’s what her mother had said. And she was right, wasn’t she? She hurried on, not wanting the answer to that. “Besides, the only way I could get Bryce off my back was to file a protective order.”
Her brother had hounded her for months to leave Max, but the fight had put him over the edge. Every time she thought she could move on, get past the nightmare that had invaded their lives, it slapped her in the face again.
Heavy silence coated the air as they sat sipping their too-expensive drinks.
“Oh!” Lane looked up. “Are you still interested in getting out of editing?”
“Interested?” She grinned, so very grateful for the change in topic. “Of course I am. Think I want to spend the rest of my life correcting everyone else’s fun?”
“Good. Then you’ve got a new job.”
Quiet wrapped around her small square in the Virginia Independent as they held each other’s gazes. Finally, Sydney found her voice. “What do you mean?”
Lane set down his cup. “I talked to LaDona about the idea you had—”
“The human interest pieces?”
“Yep. And she said that’s exactly what she’s looking for.”
Exhilaration raced through her. “You’re kidding!”
“Nope. She wants to talk to you about it today. There’s a story Culpepper picked up, and she wants to run something about it, too.”
“Cul …” Sydney nearly choked on the name of their largest competitor. If Culpepper had picked it up, then it’d be huge, especially for their small-town paper. “This is great—and right at the holidays.” The populace loved to read human interest stories around Christmas—sort of reminded them of the good in humanity. That the Scrooges could be overcome. Her smile grew, inside and out. This was just the distraction she needed. “Yeah … this is perfect.”
Lane’s green eyes sparkled, a slow smile seeping into his lips. “It’s nice to see that light in your eyes again.”
Her joy tripped. And fell over his comment. Had she really been that glum that he needed to mention it? Would this always be the proverbial elephant in the room?
“I should be going.” He stood. “You have plans for lunch?”
“Huh?” She glanced up at him. “Oh. Yeah. My mom.”
His smile waned. “Well, I’ll see you later.”
Why did he seem down about that? Lane had always said family was important. Shrugging off his reaction, Sydney swiveled her chair back to her computer. She surfed through their competitor’s online paper and found the human interest story.
“This must be it ….” A local firefighter had held a fund-raiser for a single mom whose home had burned over Halloween. In the middle of the ongoing effort, an anonymous donor had promised to match the funds. With that, the small neighborhood rallied—so much that the mom and her two children had just moved into a fully furnished home. And married the firefighter. The heroic firefighter saved the day—and rescued the girl!
It read more like a fairy tale. Chewing the top of her pen, she considered the story. What must it have been like for that woman to be rescued in every hurting part of her life? To have some gallant hero care enough to step in and effect change and healing?
Sydney had a hero. Once.
In a way, he’d died. Right along with their marriage.
Elite soldiers stood in a semicircle, waiting. For what, Max wasn’t sure. And he wouldn’t ask. If his guess was right, then time would tell—because Griffin seemed to be the guy in the know, and his relaxed posture against the SUV said things were going according to plan.
“Hey, dude, want me to look those over?” A blond guy dressed in khaki shorts, a faded tank, and a pair of flip-flops motioned to Max’s scrapes and lacerations.
Right. Beach bum wanted to play nurse. “I’m good.”
“About as good as a dog in a meat grinder,” the guy said.
Max clenched his teeth. Whatever kind of circus Griffin was running …
A diesel engine growled, the sound reverberating off the aluminum in the cavernous space, preempting the shiny blue dualie truck pulling into the dank building. The engine cut. A guy stepped out and donned a black cowboy hat that added about five inches to his six-foot-two frame.
Griffin’s laugh rumbled as he pushed off his SUV. “Colton.”
A broad grin spilled under the rim of the man’s Stetson. “Hey.” The two clasped hands and patted backs. “How’s Dante?”
A quiet dialogue carried between the two for several minutes that effectively cut out the rest of those gathered. Yeah, they had a friendship, one that said they trusted each other with more than superficial things. Something about the tight bond rankled Max. Hit deep.
“Why are we here?”
Max’s gaze bounced to the shortest and youngest of the six men in the building. The Kid had read his thoughts. A warehouse full of warriors? This setup smelled rotten.
“If you’ll be patient—” Griffin paused and glanced behind him. “I think it’s time.”
A black Chrysler 300 glided into the middle of the grouping. The hollow clunk of an opening door echoed off the steel rafters and grime-laden windows. A man emerged. White hair feathered back. A sun-bronzed nose sported dark-tinted sunglasses. The thud of the door almost swallowed the crunching of his squeaky shoes. New, expensive shoes. Maybe even tailor-made. He gripped the rim of his glasses and drew them off.
Was the old man supposed to mean something? Be someone who mattered? Irritation skittered along Max’s shoulders as the old man shook hands with Riddell and the cowboy.
“Who’s the hoo-hah?” Max mumbled to himself.
“You kidding me, man?” The blond look at him and smirked. “That’s—”
“For those not enlightened,” an authoritative voice cut through the surfer’s explanation, “my name is General Olin Lambert. I am a member of the Joint Chiefs. But among the seven of us, I am merely a citizen of the United States just like you.” Blue eyes probed each man.
Right into Max’s soul.
“With Mr. Riddell’s help, I’ve hand-chosen each and every one of you for a very specific purpose. There isn’t anything about you or your lives that I don’t know.” Lambert paused, as if to let his words sink in, but Max just wished he’d get on with it. Scabs were forming on his scrapes.
“Chosen us for what, ese?” asked the Hispanic man.
“A black ops team.”
And that meant two things: military and that this meeting was over. Max turned and started walking.
“It’s not military, Mr. Jacobs.”
Hesitation held him at the large, garage-style door he’d entered. “How can you do black ops without military aid, intelligence, and backup?” He turned around, ignoring what felt like glass stuck to his calves and thighs.
“I didn’t say we wouldn’t have aid or intelligence.” Creases pinched Lambert’s eyes at the corners. “I said it’s not military.”
“Come again?” the beach bum asked, disbelief coloring his words.
“Let the general explain.” Griffin leaned back against the truck with his cowboy buddy.
“Thank you, Mr. Riddell.” Lambert tucked his sunglasses in his left breast pocket, then threaded his fingers in front of him. Impressive and commanding. “Each of you has returned from combat changed, affected.”
Nervous glances skidded from man to man. Max glued his attention to the general, refusing to acknowledge the truth of Lambert’s words.
“You’re what I’ve dubbed discarded heroes.”
Grunts of approval rang through the building, and the group seemed to tighten in around the old man. Being a general, he knew what it was like to have slanted glances of pity from those who knew where you’d been, what you’d probably done, and what it was like to go against a politically correct ideology and fight for freedom on foreign soil. Or to have some tree hugger spit in your face and call you a murderer.
“You served your time, saw and experienced things no normal person should have to endure. Sure, you were trained. Taught to expect evil. Demanded success. However, when confronted with the true terrors of war, no human mind can dissolve the images embedded in memory for all time.
“Then it’s time to get out. They yank you back here, give you a once-over, and toss you out with a ‘thank you very much and have a good life.’ So you go home, try to reintegrate into society, and—”
“It’s screwed up,” the Kid said. He shrugged when the others scowled at him. “Well? I’m right, aren’t I? From what I heard you saying earlier,” he pointed to the beach bum, “you’ve spent time in Afghanistan—a lot.” Then to the Latino, “You probably did your tours of duty in Panama or the like.” His gaze came to Max.
“Don’t.” Fists balled, Max willed his feet to remain in place. He didn’t want anyone digging in his brain.
“Mr. Vaughn is correct,” Lambert said. “You’ve all seen combat. You’ve all been trained to kill; then you come back, and what do you do with those skills but go out of your mind?”
Max shifted. Was it over yet? He eyed the wide-open berth to freedom behind the blue dualie.
“Max Jacobs.”
Hearing his name felt like a detonation that blasted his attention back to the general.
“You served eight years with the SEALs. Your experience in command and combat no doubt left indelible scars. Watched your best friend toss himself on a grenade to save the team.”
Bile pooled at the back of Max’s throat as the memory surged. He flared his nostrils, pushing the images back into the pit from which they’d been drawn.
Lambert stalked the inner perimeter, as if prepping troops for war with a pep talk. “Lieutenant Jacobs is the man I’ve chosen as team leader, but his position is no more valuable than anyone else’s. You’ve all seen war. In this building are years of tactical experience. Incredible wisdom. And one element that makes each of you vital for this to work.”
“What’s that?” Cowboy asked, his arms folded over his thick chest.
“Loyalty, Mr. Neeley. Your duty with the Marine Special Operations Team is bloated with exemplary conduct, commendation after commendation.” He waved his hand around the cozy circle. “I’ve reviewed all of your files and found the same thing in every one.”
Awkward silence cooled some of the tension in the room, and once again Max eyed the exit.
“Mr. Reyes, your career as a pararescue jumper, specifically your medic skills, saved dozens of lives.”
“Pair o’ what?” Cowboy taunted.
“Hey,” Reyes grinned. “You’re just jealous. I’m a PJ. Why you think they call me Fix?”
“Because you put everyone in one?” Griffin chuckled, eliciting more laughter.
“Nah, man. It’s ‘cause of this,” he said as he drew out a crucifix from his shirt and kissed it. “My crucifix. They called me Cru at first, then since I’m a medic, they started calling me Fix.”
Swallowing his groan, Max ran a hand through his short crop. Religion and military. This was starting to feel worse than an AA meeting. And there wasn’t a point. “This is a lot of flowery, moving discourse, but what do you want from us?” Max mentally shook off the way the others looked at him. Was he the only one who was still waiting for the boom to lower?
“Mr. Riddell, if you please.” Lambert pointed to the black SUV as Griffin opened the tailgate. “Give each man one.”
Griffin handed out small black packs that bore a lone symbol. A strange star backed by a sword and wings. The Kid, the Beach Bum, and the Latino dug into the packs, almost excited. In seconds, a black phone, keys, a watch, and a set of duds spilled across the gray cement floor in front of them.
Max remained in place, his pack dangling from his clenched fist. He didn’t like being played. And this definitely felt like a setup.
General Lambert faced him. “Is there a problem, Mr. Jacobs?”
He dropped his pack onto the floor. “Not seeing the point.”
Behind the general, Griffin seemed to grow several inches as he towered over the aged officer. “What?” he growled. “You want to take another nose-dive off that hill? Hope this time there’s only enough of you left to fill a baggie? Want to make that estranged wife of yours a widow before you can be called a failure?”
Hands coiled, Max drew up his shoulders. Saw red. No. No. He wouldn’t give in to the goading. He dragged his attention back to the general.
“Ease up, Legend,” Cowboy said, patting Griffin’s chest. “Give the guy a chance.”
Lambert remained unwavering. “The point, Lieutenant, is to establish a team that can penetrate hostile situations without any entanglements, without any blame on the good ol’ US-of-A or any other entity or government. You returned from two tours in Iraq, one in Afghanistan, and a covert mission nobody in this room will ever know about. You were the best, a natural, your CO said. But you were so volatile after those experiences took their toll they tried to discharge you, and your compatriots nicknamed you after a volatile chemical. Somehow you held it together. Then jumped ship without warning.” More than recitation of information lurked behind the general’s blue eyes. A knowing—no, an understanding, quiet and unnerving. “Tell me, Mr. Jacobs, what are you doing with your life now?”
“Minding my own business,” Max answered through tight lips.
Lambert laughed. “And that’s exactly what you’ll be doing as part of my team. Funding isn’t a problem. You’ll have unlimited resources.”
“That’d be a change,” the Kid grumbled.
“To go where?” the Beach Bum asked.
“Doesn’t matter,” the Kid interrupted. “Man, how is this any different than military? I got out for a reason.”
“You’ll go wherever needed.” The general turned toward the younger man. “Yes, Mr. Vaughn, you did get out for a reason. Tell me, did abandoning the one thing you loved the most give you the love of your father after all?”
The Kid paled.
“Why?” Max couldn’t stand it anymore. “Why are you doing this? What’s this thing to you?”
Lambert lowered his head then looked back at Max. “I am … discarded just like you.”
“Bull.” Max tucked his hands under his arms. “You sit in a cushy chair in a carpeted office. You’re paid, you’re connected—”
“I know what you guys have been through.” The general tapped his temple. “MAC-V SOG in Nam. Two tours.”
Max’s eyebrows shot up. That meant the man before him had likely seen more carnage than the rest of them put together.
“Heard the phrase ‘peace with honor’?”
Max shrugged. “Yeah, sure. Who hasn’t?”
“It was a platitude.” Lambert’s eyes flamed under his passion. “The armchair generals lost the war, not the grunts on the ground. We won every battle they let us win. But that doesn’t make it any easier when you’re the only guy who comes home from your unit with all his parts and pieces still connected where God put ’em.
