Gray Days and Wicked Ways, page 23
part #4 of Layton Shayne Mystery Series
“I have to get ready for dinner,” Alex said.
After letting go of their cocks, I spoke. “Noooo. You already showered. All you have to do is get dressed.” I licked his balls, then sucked on his cock again while Forrest ran his hand down my ass. He climbed on top of me and rubbed his cock against the crack of my ass while nibbling on my ear.
“Stop,” Alex said, but his cock was growing harder in my mouth. “I already came once today.”
“But that was only once,” I said. “Forrest, don’t you think Alex can cum at least twice?”
“Definitely,” Forrest said, then slid down beside me and I passed Alex’s cock over to him.
Forrest licked the head of Alex’s cock then the two of us shared the cock between us. Alex pulled away and stood with his cock at full mast.
“You two need to start thinking about what you need to do,” Alex said. “How exactly do you go about letting go and giving into some supernatural thing in you?”
“I guess we need to start by relaxing our minds,” I said. “And consciously work on lowering our guard and acting on how we feel.” Forrest reached for me and held me close.
“I’ll go first,” Forrest said.
“Don’t you have to put the clock timer or alarm on?” Alex said.
“Not yet,” I said. This is just preliminary stuff before you leave.”
Forrest had his eyes closed and looked nervous. “Alex, do you feel completely purged from the Diony shit?”
“Purged and starving,” Alex said, then sat on the bed next to Forrest.
“Alex,” Forrest said, then ran his finger down Alex’s stomach before looking up at him. “No more supernatural stuff in you, huh?”
“Nope,” Alex said.
“Do you still love me… as much as you did before the cure?” Forrest said in a low voice.
Alex bent down and kissed Forrest on the lips, then spoke. “I love you even more. Without that junk clouding my mind I can see you clearly and know what I feel for you. Layton asked me when you were gone and I told him I loved you just as much as ever and even more.”
Forrest pulled Alex to him and they hugged and kissed. “If you’d never met Layton, would you and I still have gotten together,” Forrest said.
“I’d love you no matter what,” Alex said. “But, Layton is in the picture.”
“Yes he is, thank God,” Forrest said, then grabbed me and pulled me on top of him. “I need you both to love me.” His voice quivered and he got up from under me and began pacing the room.
“It’s so hard to hang on by yourself,” Forrest said and rubbed his bare arms. “I tried for so long with the ex and I thought we both wanted the same thing—a family. But he didn’t ever care for Chip. Not as much as you two do and you just met him. Then I met the Diony guy. Why? What attracted him to me… why me?”
He walked to the side of the bed, but instead of getting in he sat down on the floor between the night table and the bed. His knees were up to his chest and he rested his head in his hands. I looked at Alex when I thought I heard sobbing.
“This is happening fast,” I said, in a low voice, to Alex.
“Because he trusts us,” Alex said.
“I’m scared of being alone without someone to love me as a lover should,” Forrest said. “I tried to make my last relationships work for Chip’s sake. But they didn’t feel right for so long—not like how we three feel. It’s so natural between us. It can’t all be because of some supernatural shit.”
I went to him, pulled him out of the corner and held him in my arms. Alex got down on the floor and hugged us.
“I’m terrified inside,” Forrest said. “Scared I’m going to crack from trying to hold it all together by myself.”
“We’re here and we love you, Forrest,” I said.
“You haven’t even taken the fucking cure yet!” Forrest said.
“I have and I still love you,” Alex said.
Forrest kissed Alex desperately, then looked at me with tears in his eyes. “Please say you love me… please.”
“I do,” I said. “You know Alex and I think alike on a lot of things. If he still loves you then I will too.” My words weren’t helping. I needed to let down my walls like Forrest was doing. “God help me, Forrest. I’m scared of losing you.”
“This is crazy,” Forrest said, then stood up abruptly. “We can’t do this. I can’t let go or I’ll be lost. What’ll happen to me if we do this? What’ll happen to us?”
Chapter 39
The Hour is Here
“IF WE DO THIS?” Alex said. “It sounds like things have already started.”
“And they’ve started faster than I thought they would,” I said. “I’m just following your lead, Forrest.”
“I’m through fighting this thing,” Forrest said. “That’s why it’s happening so fast, because I’ve thrown my hands in the air.”
“Why so quickly after hanging on so long?” I said.
Forrest spoke as tears ran down his face. “This thing is tearing me up inside. Every feeling I have is so magnified… every hurt, sorrow—loneliness almost unbearable. I’ve been able to be strong because I had to be for Chip. But… but.” He leaned over and held me tightly.
“It’s because we came into the picture,” Alex said.
“I’m all in so that I don’t lose either of you,” Forrest said. “I’m so tired, Alex—so damn tired. My brother was there for me so was Mrs. Carson, but it’s not the same as having you two in my life. Hell, Layton, you’re so strong you probably can’t even relate.”
“You’re wrong there,” I said. “I remember when I was a kid seeing my Dad and his military buddies hanging out together. They were so strong and cool—I wanted to be just like them.”
“You are,” Forrest said and chuckled.
“It’s a façade sometimes,” I said. “We all do what we have to in order to survive.” I felt myself getting lost in memories. “But I never forget the day my dad found some gay magazines I had hidden in my dresser. He wasn’t snooping, he was trying to be nice and put some stuff away for me.”
“What happened?” Alex said, scooting up closer to me.
“I was a mess,” I said. “My whole body was trembling and I couldn’t even look my dad in the eyes. Then he asked me the question outright. God, I can still remember him saying it… asking me if I was gay. I couldn’t lie to him… I respected him too much for that. So I told him yes, then burst into tears. I’d tried to be strong my whole life to make my dad proud, and I suppose to make up for the fact I was gay. You know what? My dad didn’t say a word, he just held me. He held me so tight and rocked me in his arms for so long. When he finally did talk it was just to tell me it was OK, that he still loved me, and I would always be his son.”
“Wow,” Forrest said. “He was quite the man.”
“Yeah he was,” I said. “And he would’ve liked you, Forrest. You too, Alex.”
We continued sharing and talking. Forrest and I shared things and feelings that came up as our walls went tumbling down. Alex finally had to start getting ready for dinner, but before he left he hugged us both and told us he loved us.
“We’re alone now,” I said. “Now you can tell me what you were holding back still, Forrest.”
“You know me that much already, do you?” Forrest said. “The other men in my life have known me well, too. So well, in fact that they were able to use me and bend me to their will.”
“They lied to you,” I said. “I don’t want any lies between you, me, and Alex.”
“Apparently I’m easy to lie to,” Forrest said, “so I wouldn’t even know if either of you were lying.”
“Sure you would,” I said. “You trusted and loved one guy and were betrayed by him—remember I know how that feels. The other guy in your life used some kind of supernatural Diony voodoo over you.”
“Let’s never lie to one another, Layton.”
“That works for me,” I said.
Forrest who was standing, pulled me up from where I was sitting on the edge of the bed, and kissed me. He held me close as he talked.
“My ex left me feeling like an idiot, the Diony made me feel weak… like half a man. I don’t want to feel like either of those things. At one point I was strong and confident… I can remember that. But it’s not who I am now.”
“You do a good job of hiding that fact,” I said. “Especially of hiding it from yourself.” I remembered what Leticia had said about the whole alpha male thing and I didn’t want it to come between Forrest and me. “Forrest, I need a second.” He let me go and I walked to the clock and set the alarm to go off in an hour.
“I’m scared,” Forrest said.
I stood in front of him again. “Of what exactly?”
“Of what’s bubbling up inside me,” Forrest said. “I lost two men I thought I loved. But what I felt for them is nothing compared to what I feel for you. You make me want to be strong and bold. I’m scared of just how bold this stuff in my veins is gonna make me if I give in fully to what I feel.”
“And what is it you feel?” I said. My heart was beating fast as I forced myself to give into what I was feeling.
“Leticia warned you about the possibility I’d get possessive,” Forrest said. “I want you to be mine… forever. Not to go away like the others did. More than anything I want to make you undeniably mine… and Alex’s.”
I could almost feel the heat coming from him. The intensity of my desire for him was filling my entire body. “Make me yours, Forrest, in a way neither one of us could ever deny.”
He kissed me hard on the lips and it hurt a little. He forced himself away from me and turned to the wall.
“I’m sorry, Layton, I didn’t mean to hurt you. Leticia really had me pegged, it’s the alpha in me.” He laughed. “I want to be strong, bold, and one-hundred-percent male with you.”
I put my hand on his shoulder and whispered in his ear. “I like the idea of that. See my giving into the Diony stuff means giving into you completely. There have only been two people in my life I’ve wanted to have sex with and completely lose myself. One of those people is Alex. I love when he takes control and my mind can rest and follow without having to lead. The other person is you. When we had sex it was—do I have to embarrass myself?”
“Yes,” Forrest said, breathing heavily.
My voice shook as I whispered into Forrest’s ear. “My body is yours…unleash the alpha male inside you and be whole again. Hold nothing back and I’ll give all of myself—no secrets, no lies.”
He turned to me, looked into my eyes and saw I was telling the truth and giving him permission to go forward. His kiss was even harder than the last one and I gave into my desire to push back hard against him. My mouth opened and his tongue entered ready to make war with mine. I could feel and hear my heavy breaths coming from my nose. Then Forrest started on my neck. He sucked gently on my ear and down the side of my neck.
“Harder,” I said, and breathed heavily.
“I don’t think I can hold back,” Forrest said.
“Then don’t,” I said. “I’m capable of fighting back if you do something I don’t like.”
“Are you?”
“Yeah, but I don’t expect there’s much I won’t like. Right now I need and want to be made love to by an alpha male.”
He grabbed the back of my hair, yanked my head back and began sucking hard on my neck. I was moaning loudly.
“Oh, God, don’t stop, Forrest,” I said then pulled his head down into my flesh. He sucked hard and bit lightly. The sucking was hard enough it would leave a hickey… or a few. And I didn’t care—I wanted it. “Yes, yes!” I sounded like an actor in a bad porn film. At that moment I didn’t care if Forrest ripped my throat open with his mouth. I reached up and tried to push him down harder on me, but he pulled my arm down. He’d left my neck and was chewing and sucking on first one of my nipples then the other. He pulled hard on them with his teeth and my feet buckled from the pure ecstacy I felt. His strong arm around me kept me from falling backward as I leaned back to give him more access to my body. Forrest moved back up to my neck and chewed harder than ever on it—he stayed on the right side. In contrast my left nipple had gotten more attention than my right. I heard him grunt loudly as he chewed on my flesh. Suddenly he stopped, put his hands on my shoulders and pushed me downward on my knees.
“Suck it,” he said when my face was even with his hard cock. I did so, gladly.
Soon Forrest was losing himself in the motion of fucking my mouth and he did so with increasing force. His cock popped out of my mouth a few times, but I quickly retrieved it. My whole being was so hungry for it and for him… my skin felt hot and I thought I was feverish from my lust for him. I needed more, so I stopped what I was doing.
“Please,” I said. “Please fuck me. I need you inside me.”
Without saying a word, Forrest lifted me from the ground and put me over his shoulder. He threw me down on the bed then walked to the night stand and got out the bottle of lube.
“Hurry!” I said. My body trembled from my absolute need for his cock. To me it seemed like forever while I waited for him to lube his cock and my asshole. He entered me and I grasped the comforter beneath me as my body thrust itself on his cock wanting him to go harder and faster, but he went painfully slow. The situation was his to control and he knew it. Slowly he picked up speed and smiled down at me, then winked.
His body was fucking me at full speed now, and I moaned nonstop. I tried to jack off but he slapped my hand away. Without stopping he picked up the lube on the bed next to me, and put a generous amount on my cock. No—it was his cock now to take possession of… my pleasure would come from him when he wanted it and me to come. My cock felt harder than ever in his tight grip.
“It’s yours,” I said. “Rip my cock off if you want.” I was lost in a hot, feverish realm of the senses. My eyes Iooked at every inch of him—his sweaty brow, tight abs, and contorted face. He looked like a wild animal in heat and I wanted him.
“Tug on your nipples,” Forrest said.
I did so and he lifted my legs higher in the air. When he sucked on my toes my whole body shook.
“I didn’t say stop, now pull on those nips harder,” Forrest said. “Twist them between your fingers. Let me hear you like you like it.”
I moaned loudly.”Oh yeah,” Forrest said. “Fuck yeah.”
He was near to cumming, I could hear it when he spoke. Forrest pulled my body close enough so that he could lean over and suck on my nipples while fucking me.
“They’re yours, babe,” I said. “Do whatever you want.”
He chewed hard on them then kissed me on the lips before sitting up and fucking me double-time. His fist on my cock kept time to his thrusting.
“Oh my God… oh my God!” I said.
We both came at the same time. He filed my ass with more cum than I thought I’d ever had in me. My whole body shook when I came, but Forrest didn’t stop yanking my cock. My breathing was heavier and faster than ever and when Forrest took my cock in his mouth and licked the cum off it I moaned loudly. His response was to kiss me hard on the mouth again letting me taste the remnants of my cum on his tongue.
“I love you, Layton. You’re mine… you need to be mine.”
“I am yours,” I said, then pointed to my neck. “You left you mark on me I’m sure.”
Forrest kissed my neck then chewed hard on it. He moved to my ear and whispered in it.
“Hickeys fade in time. It’s not enough.”
“You are getting possessive… and I like it. We’re behaving like wild animals what would an animal do to show ownership or mark something as theirs.”
Forrest’s eyes lit up, he threw me over his shoulder again and walked into the bathroom. He placed me in the shower then gently pushed me down on my knees.
“Dogs are loving, loyal, and possessive of their people. They also mark their territory. He stood above me in the shower and began to pee on me.
I was half delirious, the piss was warm and I spread it around my entire body with my hands. When Forrest had finished he helped me up then got down on his knees and looked up at me.
“I want to be yours too,” Forrest said. “Put your scent on me… mark me as forever belonging to you.”
As I peed he used his hands to spread it around his flesh as I had done. When I felt I was so out of it I might faint, I heard the alarm go off. Without a word, Forrest put the shower on and cold water hit both our bodies. He must’ve seen me swaying on my feet because he held me in his arms and I felt secure. After a couple minutes, Forrest adjusted the temperature to make the water warmer.
“I can’t believe we just did that,” I said and leaned back against Forrest.
“Woof, woof,” Forrest said, then chuckled and gently kissed my neck. “Christ was I drunk?” We both laughed at that comment. “Layton, I want you to know that none of what we’ve done is part of my normal repertoire. Look at your poor neck.”
“It was worth it,” I said.
“You haven’t seen your neck,” Forrest said and chuckled.
“I hope that necking, blow jobs, and fucking are still on your repertoire,” I said.
“Fool, I was talking about the pissing and the intensity of what we did.” He kissed me softly on the neck and on the lips.
When we were drying off my cell phone rang and I ran for it. “Hi, Alex. The alarm went off and we just finished showering. We’re both OK and neither of us will need stitches.” I chuckled. Hearing him giggle made me smile.
“I’ll bring you and Forrest back big, juicy steaks,” Alex said. “Someone here wants to say hello.”
Forrest was by my side now and I put my phone on speaker.
“Hi, Daddy.”
We could hear Chip’s voice and the noise in the restaurant.
“Hi,” Forrest and I said.
“Are you behaving yourself and listening to the Daddy that’s with you?” Forrest said.
“Yes, Sir,” Chip said.
“Make sure to eat your veggies,” Forrest said.
