C. S. Friedman - Magister 01, page 20
“If you ask me it’s all patent nonsense. Myths written by men who wanted to assure their place in history. All dynasties inherit such tales, or else must create them later.”
“You rule without the need for such legends.”
Danton laughed heartily. “I daresay there are places on this earth where my name is granted religious significance, though I doubt it’s of the benevolent sort. That is good, though. I encourage it. Fear keeps men in line.” He took another deep drink of wine. “Meek rulers ask gods for permission before they take a piss.”
A faint smile quirked the Magister’s lips. “And you do not?”
“I piss on such men. And their gods.”
“Your wife feigns a meek demeanor,” Kostas observed, “but the spirit within is defiant.”
Fensf of Souls
“And so?” Danton reached over and splashed more wine into Kostas’s own cup. “A mare with no spirit breeds poor stallions, Magister.”
“Yes, and she has bred well, has she not?” He leaned back in his chair and added quietly, “Though not without aid.”
A thick, dark eyebrow arched upward in curiosity. “Eh?”
“Ramirus’ hand is upon your line, is it not?”
Danton’s expression darkened. “What makes you say that?”
“Come, my king—four male heirs in rapid succession, perfectly healthy, births evenly spaced, followed by two comely daughters appropriate for marital barter, at the same interval. Do you honestly expect a record like that with no assistance? Fate is rarely so kind to women. Or to kings.”
“I never asked for Ramirus’ help.”
“I never said you did.” Kostas sipped his wine slowly, letting the faint emphasis on you hang in the air for a moment.
Danton scowled. “The House of Aurelius has never required the aid of sorcerers to beget its young.”
“I am sure it does not.”
“So what, you think that my wife—?”
Kostas’ eyes glittered. “How would I know? It was before my time. I merely note that such aid means different things to a man and to a woman, for it is her life that is risked when an infant is brought into the world, not his.”
“She knows I would never approve of such a thing.”
Kostas inclined his head. “Then I am sure she would not think of displeasing you.” He sipped from his wine. “She is merely… lucky. Some women are like that.”
Danton rose from his chair and stood before the fireplace. He liked the drama of a crackling fire, for it reminded him of an enemy city put to the torch when siege was broken. Summer’s heat robbed a man of such simple pleasures. “Ramirus would never have done such a thing without being asked.”
“You know him better than I, Majesty.”
“He was my servant. As are you.”
He waited a moment to see if Kostas would protest the designation, but he did not. Finally he returned to his chair and poured himself another helping of wine. He drank from it in the manner of a man who is trying to wash a bad taste out of his mouth.
“I admit,” Kostas said, “I am curious about one thing.”
Danton looked up at him. “What?”
“Six children—one each year—the perfect royal family, and then no more? It seems… odd.”
Danton snorted. “No mystery to that one. She asked me after Tiresia’s birth if she might be spared further duty of that sort. It was a reasonable request, given that she had stocked my household well, and I granted it.”
“Ah, so she has… turned you from her bed?”
Danton’s glare was fierce. “Watch your words, Magister. Some kings might find them offensive.”
“I am simply concerned for your welfare. And for the loyalty of those surrounding you.”
“The queen’s loyalty is not in question.”
“Nonetheless, it remains my duty.”
Danton drank deeply, wiped a stray drop of wine from his face with the back of his hand, and settled into the heavily carved chair with a noisy exhalation. “There’s very little flesh on her. No comfort to a man. I married her for her family crest, not for warming my bed, and she knows it. She gave me four sons any king would be proud of. Our daughters bought me valuable alliances. As far as I know she has no lovers, which is the only offense I would never forgive. When she sits beside me at dinner, visiting princes smile more and conspire less. I have no issue—none—with her queenly performance. Do not raise the topic again.”
“As you wish, Majesty.” The hollow eyes lowered briefly, respectfully.
“Outside of that nonsense with the rocks, of course.” The High King snorted softly. “But she keeps that to her own courtyard. So long as she does not offer up anyone’s blood but her own I have no issue with it.” He stared into his wine for a moment. “What do you make of all that? The truth, now.”
Kostas steepled his fingers thoughtfully as he considered the question. “I have been to the north, and seen these ‘Spears’ myself. They are rocks, nothing more, which the locals mortar and carve into fearsome shapes to keep the populace cowed and reverent. As for the so-called Wrath, there is without doubt some odd power present in that area—I have felt it myself—but not on the scale the High Queen describes. Say rather an ominous sensation that increases as one approaches the stones. Since the Protectors are rumored to have witches among their blood, I suspect that the effect is nothing more than simple witchery. That is why I asked after the High Queen’s bloodline. I myself believe the blood rituals they practice are in fact what raises the power, whose purpose is simply to establish awe in the hearts of worshippers. It is not strong enough to do anything else, I assure you.”
“There are Magisters up there, aren’t there? I am sure they would know more about it.”
Kostas’s lips twitched briefly. “And they are as unlikely to give away the secrets that sustain their domains as I am to betray yours, my king.” He bowed his head respectfully. “Besides, is it not a fair sport for Magisters to try to discover things from one another? We must have something to amuse ourselves with while our royal masters plot out their campaigns of conquest.” Danton snorted. He was a proud man, and Kostas’ suggestion about his family was like a thorn digging into his side; it was hard to think past it. “Is there any way to know for certain?” he asked at last.
“What, Sire?”
“About the children. Gwynofar. Any way to know if my sons’ births were something other than natural?”
“Ah. Well, a woman would tell you that birth is never natural, but theirs is a different perspective.”
“You know what I mean.”
The Magister put his goblet aside. “If you are serious in that question, I could undertake to discern the truth. The mark of Ramirus’ sorcery might still be on her, or on the children. But such things are faint after so many years, and failing to find it would be no guarantee of anything save that sorcery is an uncertain art.”
Danton grunted and stared into his wine. Clearly the answer did not please him.
“You say she is loyal, Majesty. You say she would not seek Ramirus’ aid against your will. You say you are sure of these things, and of her. Is that not enough for you, then?”
“Aye.” The wine was a blood-colored mirror that reflected Danton’s scowl back at him. “It should be, should it not?”
“Men were not meant to know all the secrets of childbearing,” Kostas said quietly. “The gods gave that gift to women, and also exacted a price for it, that she should bear her knowledge in pain. Or so the priests say.” He shrugged. “Frankly I think the southern tribesmen have the right idea—lock the women away from men and Magisters both, until such time as they can no longer bear children. That way no man can interfere with what should be a natural inheritance, yes, Majesty?” He paused. “Of course, I do not imagine they make such bargains with their women as you have struck with Her Majesty, but we are a far more civilized land and must respect such things, yes?”
Danton said nothing.
A cloud crossed in front of the sun outside. It shadowed the light coming into the room briefly, but could not abate the heavy humidity that clung to the chamber, dampening a man’s skin. It was an unpleasant afternoon, by Danton’s reckoning. That did not improve his mood.
“It is not your affair,” the High King said finally. “You will not raise the issue again.”
“Of course, Your Majesty.” The Magister Royal inclined his head respectfully. With his thin neck and sharp features, the gesture seemed more appropriate to a vulture pecking at carrion than to a man.
But Danton did not notice. His mind was on other things. And finally, when it seemed that his private thoughts had reached some turning point, he set his goblet aside on the heavily carved table and left the room without further word or backward glance.
On a more human face, the Magister’s twisted expression might have been deemed a smile.
Chapter Nineteen
It is with great pleasure that Lord Entares Savresi and Lady Tandra invite you to a fete to celebrate the naming of their son, to be held upon the Night of the Twin Moons, in the Tower Savresi, Gansang. Festivities will begin at six in the evening.
They made Kamala wear a formal gown. It was a heavy silk creation embroidered in gold, worth more than all the money she had earned in her lifetime and then some. The style had some fancy name she could not pronounce which made it even more valuable (or so she was assured), and it had been made by a dressmaker who normally worked only for royalty (so she was told), and it was actually a very beautiful shade of forest green that brought out the color in her eyes… but still. It was a formal gown, which meant it embodied everything she hated most about women’s clothing.
She had fussed and sputtered and complained for the better part of a day, but the servants had insisted that nothing else would be acceptable if she was to attend an event as Ravi’s companion, and so in the end she was forced to acquiesce and allow them to fit her in it. It had a train, which she had tripped over several times, and the sleeves had long hanging ends that kept getting caught on things as she moved, but the maidservants insisted she looked absolutely wonderful, and one young girl who had run up from the kitchen just to see the fitting declared she hoped she would be as beautiful as Kamala some day. So it seemed in poor taste to keep complaining.
The day of the fete Ravi sent her a hairdresser, who spent the better part of two hours fretting over Ka-mala’s short hair, finally dressing it back in waves over the front of an opulent wig made up of coiling, pearl-studded braids. The wig was made of real human hair, the hairdresser told her proudly, not the combed wool or horsetail which might be used in poorer places. Kamala felt a knotting in her gut when she heard that, and for a moment the look in her eyes was so dark and terrible that the woman instinctively stepped back from her. What could Kamala say? That she had once lived among the kind of people so desperate for money that they might sell their own body parts for a few bits of copper? That the long red locks which so perfectly matched her own had probably once been the pride of a young peasant girl, now shorn like a sheep for Ka-mala’s pleasure? She had left that world behind now and become another kind of creature, the kind who wore the hair of other human beings as casually as Kamala the whore had once worn sheep’s wool.
When Ravi came for her he assured her that she was beautiful. He seemed to mean it, too, though she suspected he’d have said the same words if she looked like a warthog with a mustache. It was a first time a man had ever complimented her in such a tone, and even though she really did not give a damn what this plucked and powdered fool thought of her, still, it was oddly pleasing to hear the words.
There would be Magisters at the fete. So Ravi had said. They were not social creatures, he had warned, and she would do best keeping her distance from them. She had the distinct impression that he was afraid that if she talked to a Magister she would be convinced to break her contract with him. Little chance of that, she thought darkly. Ethanus had made it clear that most Magisters regarded their mortal cousins with utter disdain, and were more likely to be amused by the pathetic self-destructiveness of such a contract than exert any effort to talk her out of it.
They manipulate morati because it passes the centuries, he had told her, and are not above driving lesser beings to their deaths if that serves the moment’s amusement.
Would she become like that in time, she wondered. Not only willing to kill, but thriving upon death, encouraging the suffering of others simply to ward off boredom? Ethanus had said it was likely, and a sadness had entered his eyes then, as though he would mourn the change in her. For the first time she had wondered if that was not what had truly driven him to his hermitage in the woods, the desire to safeguard his fading humanity. It was something she could never ask him aloud. But she remembered what he had told her once, about judging her own condition: Look in the mirror and ask yourself, do you like what you see? If the answer is no, it is time to reassess your choices. Had he fled to the woods because the face that looked back at him in Ulran was too distasteful to bear?
The day of the fete was cool and crisp and the wind was westerly, which blew the foul air of the Quarter out to sea; all in all, a pleasant day. Ravi and his entourage began traveling in the morning, making their way through the network of towers and bridges that enveloped the Hill according to some complex and—to Kamala—indecipherable pattern. At each new tower they stopped to pay their respects to the owner, exchange gifts and gossip, and then Ravi added his entourage to those that had already assembled. By midafternoon they were thirty strong, bobbing along the slender bridges in their jeweled silks like a pride of peacocks, with the richest and most important nobles of the city at the head of the line. Kamala walked by Ravi’s side, as he had promised. It gave her a secret thrill to know that the nobles surrounding her thought her their equal, but it also inflamed a silent anger to be forced to such subterfuge. If she were a man she could simply don the traditional color of the Magisters and all the world would give her the respect she deserved. Only because she was a woman was she forced to continually pretend she was something else and to receive her respect secondhand.
You could always make yourself look like a man, she reminded herself. Sorcery could sculpt her flesh into any shape she liked. All she had to do was put on a man’s face, add a little height and breadth of shoulder, and drape herself in the occult black of a Magister’s traditional dress; she wouldn’t even have to transform the parts that mattered, if the gown were long enough. Who would think to question her then?
But that was a kind of defeat, and one that she was not willing to accept. She had not slaved for long years in training and then risked her life in her first Transition only to have her status determined by some puerile masquerade. The Magisters will accept me as I am, she thought stubbornly, or I will go without their approval
Ravi’s party arrived late, which was apparently deliberate, a choice determined by the illustrious rank of those in his procession. Guests were announced as they entered the great hall, and Gansang’s ruling elite preferred there to be enough people present when they arrived that they might be properly admired. Ravi himself was one of the last of the group to enter—apparently a sign of his station—and Kamala entered on his arm, heralded as “the Lady Sidra” by a youth wearing the gold-and-black livery of House Savresi. Heads turned as she descended the marble stairs by Ravi’s side, and she could hear a thousand curious whispers surrounding her, details inaudible, like the humming of locusts.
The great hall of Tower Savresi turned out to be immense, and crowded to its last inch with the most illustrious peacocks of the realm. It took up the entire ground floor of the building, and had a vaulted ceiling that faded into shadows high overhead. There were stained-glass windows set high up in the walls that must have been magnificent in the daylight, but in the evening the only light coming through them was torchlight from the bridges and streets beyond, a flickering, eerie illumination that caused colors to shimmer across the floor as breezes fanned the flames. One end of the great hall had vast tables piled with expensive foodstuffs, including sweets carved into the shapes of merchant ships, castles, and even exotic animals; the other was occupied by a raised stage upon which musicians played, a southern melody that suggested perfumed gardens filled with dancing girls. It was almost too much for Kamala to absorb; she looked about half-dazed by it all, trying to get her bearings, even as Ravi led her through a gauntlet of mandatory introductions.
She had been taught how to greet the peacocks of Gansang properly, which was a good thing, because for the better part of an hour that was all she was able to do. It seemed that every man in the room must come to pay his respects to Ravi, and every woman must find some excuse to come inspect her more closely. She did not need sorcery to see the desire in the men who kissed her hand, nor the cold envy in the faces of the women who greeted her. Did her body entice the men, long and lean and gleaming in its carapace of jeweled silk, or was it simply that she was something new, a mystery, a prize that had been claimed by Ravi before anyone else had a chance to despoil it? She had seen enough of the dark underbelly of male desire to have no illusions about its source. Nothing inspired a man’s lust more than the presence of a woman he could not possess.
Through all of this she did not catch a single glimpse of the Magisters. She found it hard to concentrate on anyone else with them on her mind, not even the entertainment, which ran the gamut from jugglers to fire eaters to a sextet of half-naked dancers from some exotic island. At another time she would have been fascinated to see it all—and thrilled to be watching them from a position of honor, rather than stealing a peek at them from some hiding place in the shadows—but tonight there was only one thing on her mind.
And then she saw one. Or felt one, rather, for his sorcery was a cold thing that whispered across the back of her neck, and no Magister could miss its meaning. She looked up, high into the shadows of the upper hall, seeking the source of the spell. There were balconies and galleries perched all about the circular walls at a variety of heights, linked together by a network of staircases. The uppermost perches were small and dark and offered a modicum of privacy; she could make out pairs of lovers nestling together in their chosen roosts, merchants whispering bargains out of earshot of the crowd below, nobles politicking, and of course a few antisocial creatures who simply preferred the height as a vantage point, from which they might watch the festivities on the main floor without the need to smile at anyone.
“You rule without the need for such legends.”
Danton laughed heartily. “I daresay there are places on this earth where my name is granted religious significance, though I doubt it’s of the benevolent sort. That is good, though. I encourage it. Fear keeps men in line.” He took another deep drink of wine. “Meek rulers ask gods for permission before they take a piss.”
A faint smile quirked the Magister’s lips. “And you do not?”
“I piss on such men. And their gods.”
“Your wife feigns a meek demeanor,” Kostas observed, “but the spirit within is defiant.”
Fensf of Souls
“And so?” Danton reached over and splashed more wine into Kostas’s own cup. “A mare with no spirit breeds poor stallions, Magister.”
“Yes, and she has bred well, has she not?” He leaned back in his chair and added quietly, “Though not without aid.”
A thick, dark eyebrow arched upward in curiosity. “Eh?”
“Ramirus’ hand is upon your line, is it not?”
Danton’s expression darkened. “What makes you say that?”
“Come, my king—four male heirs in rapid succession, perfectly healthy, births evenly spaced, followed by two comely daughters appropriate for marital barter, at the same interval. Do you honestly expect a record like that with no assistance? Fate is rarely so kind to women. Or to kings.”
“I never asked for Ramirus’ help.”
“I never said you did.” Kostas sipped his wine slowly, letting the faint emphasis on you hang in the air for a moment.
Danton scowled. “The House of Aurelius has never required the aid of sorcerers to beget its young.”
“I am sure it does not.”
“So what, you think that my wife—?”
Kostas’ eyes glittered. “How would I know? It was before my time. I merely note that such aid means different things to a man and to a woman, for it is her life that is risked when an infant is brought into the world, not his.”
“She knows I would never approve of such a thing.”
Kostas inclined his head. “Then I am sure she would not think of displeasing you.” He sipped from his wine. “She is merely… lucky. Some women are like that.”
Danton rose from his chair and stood before the fireplace. He liked the drama of a crackling fire, for it reminded him of an enemy city put to the torch when siege was broken. Summer’s heat robbed a man of such simple pleasures. “Ramirus would never have done such a thing without being asked.”
“You know him better than I, Majesty.”
“He was my servant. As are you.”
He waited a moment to see if Kostas would protest the designation, but he did not. Finally he returned to his chair and poured himself another helping of wine. He drank from it in the manner of a man who is trying to wash a bad taste out of his mouth.
“I admit,” Kostas said, “I am curious about one thing.”
Danton looked up at him. “What?”
“Six children—one each year—the perfect royal family, and then no more? It seems… odd.”
Danton snorted. “No mystery to that one. She asked me after Tiresia’s birth if she might be spared further duty of that sort. It was a reasonable request, given that she had stocked my household well, and I granted it.”
“Ah, so she has… turned you from her bed?”
Danton’s glare was fierce. “Watch your words, Magister. Some kings might find them offensive.”
“I am simply concerned for your welfare. And for the loyalty of those surrounding you.”
“The queen’s loyalty is not in question.”
“Nonetheless, it remains my duty.”
Danton drank deeply, wiped a stray drop of wine from his face with the back of his hand, and settled into the heavily carved chair with a noisy exhalation. “There’s very little flesh on her. No comfort to a man. I married her for her family crest, not for warming my bed, and she knows it. She gave me four sons any king would be proud of. Our daughters bought me valuable alliances. As far as I know she has no lovers, which is the only offense I would never forgive. When she sits beside me at dinner, visiting princes smile more and conspire less. I have no issue—none—with her queenly performance. Do not raise the topic again.”
“As you wish, Majesty.” The hollow eyes lowered briefly, respectfully.
“Outside of that nonsense with the rocks, of course.” The High King snorted softly. “But she keeps that to her own courtyard. So long as she does not offer up anyone’s blood but her own I have no issue with it.” He stared into his wine for a moment. “What do you make of all that? The truth, now.”
Kostas steepled his fingers thoughtfully as he considered the question. “I have been to the north, and seen these ‘Spears’ myself. They are rocks, nothing more, which the locals mortar and carve into fearsome shapes to keep the populace cowed and reverent. As for the so-called Wrath, there is without doubt some odd power present in that area—I have felt it myself—but not on the scale the High Queen describes. Say rather an ominous sensation that increases as one approaches the stones. Since the Protectors are rumored to have witches among their blood, I suspect that the effect is nothing more than simple witchery. That is why I asked after the High Queen’s bloodline. I myself believe the blood rituals they practice are in fact what raises the power, whose purpose is simply to establish awe in the hearts of worshippers. It is not strong enough to do anything else, I assure you.”
“There are Magisters up there, aren’t there? I am sure they would know more about it.”
Kostas’s lips twitched briefly. “And they are as unlikely to give away the secrets that sustain their domains as I am to betray yours, my king.” He bowed his head respectfully. “Besides, is it not a fair sport for Magisters to try to discover things from one another? We must have something to amuse ourselves with while our royal masters plot out their campaigns of conquest.” Danton snorted. He was a proud man, and Kostas’ suggestion about his family was like a thorn digging into his side; it was hard to think past it. “Is there any way to know for certain?” he asked at last.
“What, Sire?”
“About the children. Gwynofar. Any way to know if my sons’ births were something other than natural?”
“Ah. Well, a woman would tell you that birth is never natural, but theirs is a different perspective.”
“You know what I mean.”
The Magister put his goblet aside. “If you are serious in that question, I could undertake to discern the truth. The mark of Ramirus’ sorcery might still be on her, or on the children. But such things are faint after so many years, and failing to find it would be no guarantee of anything save that sorcery is an uncertain art.”
Danton grunted and stared into his wine. Clearly the answer did not please him.
“You say she is loyal, Majesty. You say she would not seek Ramirus’ aid against your will. You say you are sure of these things, and of her. Is that not enough for you, then?”
“Aye.” The wine was a blood-colored mirror that reflected Danton’s scowl back at him. “It should be, should it not?”
“Men were not meant to know all the secrets of childbearing,” Kostas said quietly. “The gods gave that gift to women, and also exacted a price for it, that she should bear her knowledge in pain. Or so the priests say.” He shrugged. “Frankly I think the southern tribesmen have the right idea—lock the women away from men and Magisters both, until such time as they can no longer bear children. That way no man can interfere with what should be a natural inheritance, yes, Majesty?” He paused. “Of course, I do not imagine they make such bargains with their women as you have struck with Her Majesty, but we are a far more civilized land and must respect such things, yes?”
Danton said nothing.
A cloud crossed in front of the sun outside. It shadowed the light coming into the room briefly, but could not abate the heavy humidity that clung to the chamber, dampening a man’s skin. It was an unpleasant afternoon, by Danton’s reckoning. That did not improve his mood.
“It is not your affair,” the High King said finally. “You will not raise the issue again.”
“Of course, Your Majesty.” The Magister Royal inclined his head respectfully. With his thin neck and sharp features, the gesture seemed more appropriate to a vulture pecking at carrion than to a man.
But Danton did not notice. His mind was on other things. And finally, when it seemed that his private thoughts had reached some turning point, he set his goblet aside on the heavily carved table and left the room without further word or backward glance.
On a more human face, the Magister’s twisted expression might have been deemed a smile.
Chapter Nineteen
It is with great pleasure that Lord Entares Savresi and Lady Tandra invite you to a fete to celebrate the naming of their son, to be held upon the Night of the Twin Moons, in the Tower Savresi, Gansang. Festivities will begin at six in the evening.
They made Kamala wear a formal gown. It was a heavy silk creation embroidered in gold, worth more than all the money she had earned in her lifetime and then some. The style had some fancy name she could not pronounce which made it even more valuable (or so she was assured), and it had been made by a dressmaker who normally worked only for royalty (so she was told), and it was actually a very beautiful shade of forest green that brought out the color in her eyes… but still. It was a formal gown, which meant it embodied everything she hated most about women’s clothing.
She had fussed and sputtered and complained for the better part of a day, but the servants had insisted that nothing else would be acceptable if she was to attend an event as Ravi’s companion, and so in the end she was forced to acquiesce and allow them to fit her in it. It had a train, which she had tripped over several times, and the sleeves had long hanging ends that kept getting caught on things as she moved, but the maidservants insisted she looked absolutely wonderful, and one young girl who had run up from the kitchen just to see the fitting declared she hoped she would be as beautiful as Kamala some day. So it seemed in poor taste to keep complaining.
The day of the fete Ravi sent her a hairdresser, who spent the better part of two hours fretting over Ka-mala’s short hair, finally dressing it back in waves over the front of an opulent wig made up of coiling, pearl-studded braids. The wig was made of real human hair, the hairdresser told her proudly, not the combed wool or horsetail which might be used in poorer places. Kamala felt a knotting in her gut when she heard that, and for a moment the look in her eyes was so dark and terrible that the woman instinctively stepped back from her. What could Kamala say? That she had once lived among the kind of people so desperate for money that they might sell their own body parts for a few bits of copper? That the long red locks which so perfectly matched her own had probably once been the pride of a young peasant girl, now shorn like a sheep for Ka-mala’s pleasure? She had left that world behind now and become another kind of creature, the kind who wore the hair of other human beings as casually as Kamala the whore had once worn sheep’s wool.
When Ravi came for her he assured her that she was beautiful. He seemed to mean it, too, though she suspected he’d have said the same words if she looked like a warthog with a mustache. It was a first time a man had ever complimented her in such a tone, and even though she really did not give a damn what this plucked and powdered fool thought of her, still, it was oddly pleasing to hear the words.
There would be Magisters at the fete. So Ravi had said. They were not social creatures, he had warned, and she would do best keeping her distance from them. She had the distinct impression that he was afraid that if she talked to a Magister she would be convinced to break her contract with him. Little chance of that, she thought darkly. Ethanus had made it clear that most Magisters regarded their mortal cousins with utter disdain, and were more likely to be amused by the pathetic self-destructiveness of such a contract than exert any effort to talk her out of it.
They manipulate morati because it passes the centuries, he had told her, and are not above driving lesser beings to their deaths if that serves the moment’s amusement.
Would she become like that in time, she wondered. Not only willing to kill, but thriving upon death, encouraging the suffering of others simply to ward off boredom? Ethanus had said it was likely, and a sadness had entered his eyes then, as though he would mourn the change in her. For the first time she had wondered if that was not what had truly driven him to his hermitage in the woods, the desire to safeguard his fading humanity. It was something she could never ask him aloud. But she remembered what he had told her once, about judging her own condition: Look in the mirror and ask yourself, do you like what you see? If the answer is no, it is time to reassess your choices. Had he fled to the woods because the face that looked back at him in Ulran was too distasteful to bear?
The day of the fete was cool and crisp and the wind was westerly, which blew the foul air of the Quarter out to sea; all in all, a pleasant day. Ravi and his entourage began traveling in the morning, making their way through the network of towers and bridges that enveloped the Hill according to some complex and—to Kamala—indecipherable pattern. At each new tower they stopped to pay their respects to the owner, exchange gifts and gossip, and then Ravi added his entourage to those that had already assembled. By midafternoon they were thirty strong, bobbing along the slender bridges in their jeweled silks like a pride of peacocks, with the richest and most important nobles of the city at the head of the line. Kamala walked by Ravi’s side, as he had promised. It gave her a secret thrill to know that the nobles surrounding her thought her their equal, but it also inflamed a silent anger to be forced to such subterfuge. If she were a man she could simply don the traditional color of the Magisters and all the world would give her the respect she deserved. Only because she was a woman was she forced to continually pretend she was something else and to receive her respect secondhand.
You could always make yourself look like a man, she reminded herself. Sorcery could sculpt her flesh into any shape she liked. All she had to do was put on a man’s face, add a little height and breadth of shoulder, and drape herself in the occult black of a Magister’s traditional dress; she wouldn’t even have to transform the parts that mattered, if the gown were long enough. Who would think to question her then?
But that was a kind of defeat, and one that she was not willing to accept. She had not slaved for long years in training and then risked her life in her first Transition only to have her status determined by some puerile masquerade. The Magisters will accept me as I am, she thought stubbornly, or I will go without their approval
Ravi’s party arrived late, which was apparently deliberate, a choice determined by the illustrious rank of those in his procession. Guests were announced as they entered the great hall, and Gansang’s ruling elite preferred there to be enough people present when they arrived that they might be properly admired. Ravi himself was one of the last of the group to enter—apparently a sign of his station—and Kamala entered on his arm, heralded as “the Lady Sidra” by a youth wearing the gold-and-black livery of House Savresi. Heads turned as she descended the marble stairs by Ravi’s side, and she could hear a thousand curious whispers surrounding her, details inaudible, like the humming of locusts.
The great hall of Tower Savresi turned out to be immense, and crowded to its last inch with the most illustrious peacocks of the realm. It took up the entire ground floor of the building, and had a vaulted ceiling that faded into shadows high overhead. There were stained-glass windows set high up in the walls that must have been magnificent in the daylight, but in the evening the only light coming through them was torchlight from the bridges and streets beyond, a flickering, eerie illumination that caused colors to shimmer across the floor as breezes fanned the flames. One end of the great hall had vast tables piled with expensive foodstuffs, including sweets carved into the shapes of merchant ships, castles, and even exotic animals; the other was occupied by a raised stage upon which musicians played, a southern melody that suggested perfumed gardens filled with dancing girls. It was almost too much for Kamala to absorb; she looked about half-dazed by it all, trying to get her bearings, even as Ravi led her through a gauntlet of mandatory introductions.
She had been taught how to greet the peacocks of Gansang properly, which was a good thing, because for the better part of an hour that was all she was able to do. It seemed that every man in the room must come to pay his respects to Ravi, and every woman must find some excuse to come inspect her more closely. She did not need sorcery to see the desire in the men who kissed her hand, nor the cold envy in the faces of the women who greeted her. Did her body entice the men, long and lean and gleaming in its carapace of jeweled silk, or was it simply that she was something new, a mystery, a prize that had been claimed by Ravi before anyone else had a chance to despoil it? She had seen enough of the dark underbelly of male desire to have no illusions about its source. Nothing inspired a man’s lust more than the presence of a woman he could not possess.
Through all of this she did not catch a single glimpse of the Magisters. She found it hard to concentrate on anyone else with them on her mind, not even the entertainment, which ran the gamut from jugglers to fire eaters to a sextet of half-naked dancers from some exotic island. At another time she would have been fascinated to see it all—and thrilled to be watching them from a position of honor, rather than stealing a peek at them from some hiding place in the shadows—but tonight there was only one thing on her mind.
And then she saw one. Or felt one, rather, for his sorcery was a cold thing that whispered across the back of her neck, and no Magister could miss its meaning. She looked up, high into the shadows of the upper hall, seeking the source of the spell. There were balconies and galleries perched all about the circular walls at a variety of heights, linked together by a network of staircases. The uppermost perches were small and dark and offered a modicum of privacy; she could make out pairs of lovers nestling together in their chosen roosts, merchants whispering bargains out of earshot of the crowd below, nobles politicking, and of course a few antisocial creatures who simply preferred the height as a vantage point, from which they might watch the festivities on the main floor without the need to smile at anyone.
