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Brave Deeds


  Also by David Abrams

  Fobbit

  BRAVE

  DEEDS

  A NOVEL

  DAVID ABRAMS

  AUTHOR OF FOBBIT

  Copyright © 2017 by David Abrams

  Cover design by Christopher Moisan

  Cover artwork based on soldiers © Shutterstock; and camoufl age © Superstock

  A version of chapter 25 originally appeared in the Provo Canyon Review, vol. 4, issue 3 (Summer 2016).

  Excerpt from “We Real Cool” by Gwendolyn Brooks reprinted by consent of Brooks Permissions.

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  Published simultaneously in Canada

  Printed in the United States of America

  First Grove Atlantic paperback edition: August 2017

  FIRST EDITION

  ISBN 978-0-8021-2686-3

  eISBN 978-0-8021-8914-1

  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are products of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, entities, or persons living or dead are entirely coincidental.

  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication data is available for this title.

  Black Cat

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  for Jean

  Lover, Cheerleader,

  and the one person for whom I’d walk on blisters

  all the way across Baghdad

  “Tell brave deeds of war.”

  Then they recounted tales,—

  “There were stern stands

  And bitter runs for glory.”

  Ah, I think there were braver deeds.

  —Stephen Crane, The Black Riders and Other Lines

  Table of Contents

  Cover

  Also by David Abrams

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Epigraph

  1 We

  2 Foot

  3 Sounds Like “Rake” or “Leaf”

  4 Boots

  5 The Sprinter

  6 Bad News

  7 What We Found

  8 FNG

  9 Grand Theft Humvee

  10 We Real Cool

  11 Solitude

  12 Arrow

  13 O

  14 James and Jinx

  15 Fake Smile

  16 Chicken

  17 Cheever

  18 Rafe Would Have Liked the Chicken

  19 Fish

  20 Nightmare

  21 Legs

  22 One Foot in Front of the Other

  23 Park

  24 Bride

  25 Wedding

  26 Drew

  27 Walking Through the Garden of Eden

  28 The Secret Life of Men

  29 The Part Where Things Start to Blur

  30 Who Are You?

  31 Objective

  32 Land Nav

  33 Inventory

  34 Problem

  35 In This Way, It Was Decided

  36 Her

  37 No One Said Anything

  38 Rafe in the Belly of the Plane

  39 Trail of Blood

  40 Blood Pours Out

  41 In Delirium

  42 Huddle

  43 Blow Job

  44 Backtrack

  45 This Ain’t No Movie

  46 Wheels

  47 Scream

  48 On the Road Again

  49 Flowers

  50 Death

  51 ECP

  52 FOB Saro

  53 Zero to Hero

  54 Memorial

  Acknowledgments

  1

  We

  We walk, we walk, we walk.

  We head into the fireball sun, packed in battle armor, baking from the inside out, throats coated with dust, hearts like parade drums, adrenaline spiking off the charts. We’re alone, cut off from the rest of the brigade back at Taji, and now thanks to a busted drive shaft weakened in last week’s IED blast along Route Irish, we are without a Humvee. We’ll have to finish this on foot.

  We double-time across Baghdad on our twelve feet, a mutant dozen-legged beetle dashing from rock to rock, confident in its shell but always careful of the soft belly beneath. We are six men moving single file along the alleys, the edges of roads, the maze of beige buildings. We keep moving: ducking and dodging and cursing and sprinting. We wonder how it could have gone so wrong so fast.

  Going on foot was never part of the plan. That damn drive shaft—nobody saw it coming. And it’s not like we can call for help—dial 911 or send up a flare—because we’re not supposed to be out here. We’re on our own and now we really have to keep up the pace if we’re gonna make it.

  The memorial service starts at 1500 hours. The last time we checked our watches, it was 1030. Half the morning gone. We may not make it.

  From the back, Cheever calls out, “Hey, wait up.”

  “Keep moving, Cheeve,” Arrow says, not turning his head as he jogs down the street. He’s on point and he’s focused. We wait for no one; we pause for no Cheeve.

  “It’s these blisters, man. They’re killing me.”

  “Aw, somebody call the waaambulance,” says Drew.

  “My boots’re filling with blood. I can feel it.”

  “Squish, squish, squish,” Fish says.

  “That’s enough, guys,” says O, his voice softer than ours: steel wrapped in velvet. That’s O. He’s never loud, but we always listen.

  Everyone loves O. His full name is Olijandro, but we keep it at O—short, simple, sweet. Round as a bullet hole.

  We have every right to give Cheever a hard time. He is, after all, the one who left the radio back in the Humvee—forgotten in our mad scramble to get out of what at the time looked like a singularly dangerous situation, an SDS. That’s what Rafe would have called it, the kind of thing he was always warning us about—before he himself was the victim of the ultimate SDS.

  Two hours ago. Jesus, was it really only two hours? Feels like a whole week since then. Two hours ago we were cruising along, taking the streets quick and easy. There was no laughter because we were on a sober mission, but we were feeling good. As good as we could, given the circumstances.

  Park said he knew the way and we believed him. Why shouldn’t we? Park is quiet, but smart. Not one to take risks. And today, of all days, we need to be risk free.

  Everything was going fine. Smooth as a baby’s shaved ass. Park at the wheel, Arrow riding shotgun, the rest of us crammed in the back: O sitting on Fish’s lap, Cheever digging into his second bag of Doritos for the day, Drew sandwiched somewhere in the middle. Early morning locals in fluttering robes swished past the Humvee’s small windows. Burnt shells of cars lined the curb, lingering memories of bombs. Billboards with soccer players saying things we couldn’t understand, but offering us a Coke and a smile. Everything good an
d fine, then bang! It’s like the Humvee decided it had had enough. Sorry, guys. I’m calling it quits. You’re on your own from here.

  You should’ve seen the look on Park’s face when the steering wheel locked up.

  This cannot be happening. Not here, not now.

  Then came a hard clunk, and the Humvee shuddered to a stop. When we realized it wasn’t coming back to life, we were out of there. Every which way in crazy panic, no time to stop and think. Even the Doritos got left behind.

  By the time we regrouped two blocks away and Drew said maybe we should just turn ourselves in and call back to headquarters, we realized Cheever, our radio guy, was empty-handed and the situation had gone from bad to totally fucked.

  A look came into Cheever’s eyes and he released a string of curses.

  Arrow closed his eyes, ground his molars, then said (over Cheever’s shit shit, damn damns): “I know you’re not gonna tell me you left the assault pack back there. Don’t you dare let those words come out of your mouth.”

  “Just kill me now,” Cheever moaned. He stared hard at the ground, his eyes boring a hole, digging the dimensions of a grave.

  Some of us were all for doubling back and retrieving the PRC-119, but Fish shook his head and said, “Too late. Hajji’s already scavenged the whole damn thing by now. We’d be lucky to find a single hubcap spinning in the gutter.”

  Humvees don’t have hubcaps, but that’s typical Fish—always exaggerating to make things worse than they were.

  In this case, though, he had a point.

  We blame Cheever. Never leave a PRC-119 in the hands of a guy like him. A platoon’s radio operator is supposed to be the smartest guy on the team—like a Yale Law School grad slumming in the Army—but we ended up with someone who never quite mastered the call signs and treated the radios like crossword puzzles he couldn’t finish.

  Cheever is the self-appointed jokester in our little band of not-so-merry men. He’ll go around saying things like: “Don’t fire until you see the whites of their eggs” or “I’m so broke, I can’t even pay attention.” Once, when Private Cartwright slipped in the motor pool and came down hard on a trailer hitch between his legs, Cheever goes, “Ooh, right in the Balzac!” Lame-ass stuff that no matter what he thinks doesn’t earn him any extra cool points.

  Nobody’s laughing at anything by this point. All kinds of scenarios unspool through our heads. We think about Jessica Lynch and all the wrong turns her convoy took in the labyrinth of streets. We remember hearing about a British journalist kidnapped last month. His beheading is now trending on YouTube. We think of those civilian contractors who were caught, strung up from the girders of a bridge, and then hung there for days after their bodies had been burned. They looked like big slabs of beef jerky swaying in the breeze. None of us wanted to end up like that.

  So there we were, a cluster of dumb in the middle of Baghdad.

  Oh well, at least we had a map.

  We reached into our cargo pockets, unsnapped ammo pouches, probed fingers into pockets behind our flak vests.

  Nothing.

  We looked at each other, swallowing hard (none of us wanting to admit to the others that we were swallowing hard). We already saw how this would play out—like the surprise twist of a movie you can see coming fifteen minutes before the credits roll. If we were the virgin tiptoeing around the serial killer’s lair, we’d be jeering and throwing popcorn at ourselves.

  Arrow said we had to go back to the Humvee, take our chances, hajjis or no hajjis. We didn’t argue. We needed the map.

  Arrow led us back. We were half a block away—keeping to the shadows, hugging the buildings—and were about to turn down the street where the Humvee was hasty-parked with two tires up on the curb when Arrow held up a fist for us to stop.

  We didn’t need to be told. We’d seen the men and boys and some women streaming down the street, magnet-pulled toward something unseen. We knew what that invisible attraction was. We’d been such fools to leave the Humvee like we did.

  We slammed ourselves flat against the wall of an electronics store. Arrow inched himself up to the corner, snapped a peek around the side, then pulled back just as fast. He looked at us, shook his head, then twirled his finger for us to reverse.

  That’s when we smelled the smoke and knew we were no-question-about-it fucked. Mapless in Baghdad.

  We threw together a quick plan and made a good guess at our current location. Then we moved out away from the destroyed Humvee and the happy chants of Iraqis celebrating what to them looked like a victory.

  Now here we are, slipping from building to building, street by street, trying not to call too much attention to ourselves in this city that already hates us.

  “Arrow,” Cheever calls again. He’s still limping. “I’m not kidding.”

  Arrow doesn’t stop, will not stop until we reach Forward Operating Base Saro safe and sound. That’s the mission and he’s intense and focused as a shaft whistling through the air until it thunks into the target at the FOB. Arrow’s not his real name. He’s tall and thin and moves like he’s been shot from a bow. His real name is Arogapoulos—the letters squeezed together into tight, muddy stitchery on his Velcro name tag—but none of us could ever manage that, so we called him Arrow. It started after one of the company “fun runs” back at Fort Drum. The last half mile, First Sergeant usually let us break ranks and compete our way to the end. That day, Arogapoulos was leading the pack and he pushed hard all the way to the finish line. Slim, intent on purpose (finish FIRST finish FIRST), the breeze whistling in his ears. As we came out of the woods, Arogapoulos whipped past the entire company and collapsed to his knees, gagging on the grass in front of the barracks. Later, huffing from his own last kicking sprint, Sergeant Morgan looked at him and shook his head, grinning. “Jesus, you were like an arrow there at the end, Specialist A.” So the name stuck. When Rafe christens you, you keep it.

  “C’mon, Arrow—”

  “Shut up, Cheever,” Park snaps.

  “Yeah, we’re all walking on blisters,” Drew says.

  “Fine! Fuck all y’all,” says Cheever. He lags behind.

  Five minutes later, Arrow is forced to slow, then stop. While we pull security, Cheever unties his left boot. We surround him in a ring, M4 barrels pointed out, a bristling pincushion. We scan the rooftops, the windows, the doorways. Somebody could be up there right now with us in his sights, ready to take us out with one RPG. Later, we’ll look back on this—at least some of us will—and think, We weren’t too smart, were we? Bunching up in a cluster around Cheever, the fat pudge. But since we know Cheeve will pay more attention to himself than he will team security, we pull in close. Cheever has his good points, but selflessness is not one of them.

  We are six men—Arrow, Park, Drew, O, Cheever, and Fish. And we are moving through the most dangerous sectors of Baghdad—the bubble of the boil—on foot now, thanks to the goddamn drive shaft and its microscopic cracks. We are on our way to FOB Saro to attend the memorial service for Sergeant Rafe Morgan and we are determined to make it there before sundown, alive, intact, all twelve arms and legs still attached. One team, one fight, one brotherhood. Just like the poster in our recruiter’s office.

  2

  Foot

  We’re in a hurry, but if we have to stop and take care of one of our own, we will.

  We look at Cheever’s foot outside the boot. It’s moist and raw—straight out of a butcher’s glass case. And the smell. It’s a sun-ripened leather bag full of vomit sprinkled with sugar. It makes our nostrils cry for mercy.

  We all go, “Jesus, Cheever!”

  “Moleskin,” Arrow says.

  Cheever drops his eyes, mumbles, “It’s back at Taji.”

  Camp Taji, our home away from home, is thirty klicks behind us.

  “Well, that’s a good place for it,” says Drew. “Better there than on your foot.”

  “Sure could use Doc right about now,” Cheever says.

  “Savarola, shit,” Fish spits.
“What a pussy.”

  “Hey,” O says. “Doc’s all right. He made his choice, just like we made a choice.”

  Savarola could have come with us, said he was gonna come with us, but he backed out at the last minute. We waited around the motor pool for fifteen minutes this morning—longer than he deserved—until Arrow called it and said, “Looks like he stood us up.”

  And so we went out into Baghdad on our own without a medic.

  “Wish he were here now,” Cheever is still going on. “At least he could give me some Tylenol to chew on.”

  “Suck it up, Cheeve.”

  “This whole day is turning out to be nothing but one big suck hole,” he grumbles.

  There is a sound halfway down the block, a clang of metal. A baseplate getting set into position, or the metallic mumblings of crated artillery shells knocking together. We snap back into the moment. Our M4 rifles come alert.

  We wait. We listen. We watch.

  Nothing.

  “Stand down,” Arrow says. “Jesus.” He shakes his head. “It’s too early to be this jumpy.”

  We relax but don’t lower our rifles.

  Then O says, “He can have my moleskin.”

  “Bullshit!” we cry.

  Arrow says, “You are not giving up your moleskin, O.”

  “Why not?”

  “Because I said so.”

  They stare at each other for a long time—too long, if you ask the rest of us. This is how it goes—testing a new leader’s boundaries, poking the bear to see if he’ll wake and, if he does, how hard he’ll roar. They’ll send over Sergeant Morgan’s replacement soon—from Bravo Company or maybe HHC as a last resort—but for now Arrow is in charge of our squad. For today, a week—or, who knows, as long as a month if he’s lucky. Besides, before he died, Rafe all but promised Arrow he’d get his stripes.

  We’re trying to get used to Arrow being the de facto squad leader. This day, this SDS we’ve gotten ourselves into, has called for one of us to step into Sergeant Morgan’s vacuum. Given Arrow’s time in grade—he got promoted to specialist long before the rest of us—it looks like he’s the man of the hour. He doesn’t have Rafe’s stripes or his years—this was Sergeant Morgan’s third deployment and he knew his shit—but on this day, things like that don’t matter as much as they would if we were back on Taji.

 
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