Fall for Me, page 10
Earlier, she accused me of flirting with Fitz’s assistant over the phone. A few minutes later, she’s curled up in my arms, mumbling nonsense and begging me not to walk away.
Incoherent or not, being the center of her life is everything to me. We are finally in a place where we can openly hold onto each other, where we can kiss and enjoy our relationship. Yesterday I begged her to tell me what was going on. That’s when we finally had a breakthrough.
“Don’t speak, write everything down.” Handing her a pen, I took off my shirt.
“You simply don’t understand.” Her hands fluttered as she held it, swallowing hard. “I already shared too much.”
“I thought you said you wanted me to be a part of you.” I lowered myself onto the bed, resting on my stomach. “We have to start somewhere. Write down your thoughts.” Resting my chin on top of my folded hands.
“Trust me this once.” I stared into her eyes as I looked over my shoulder, begging her soul to listen to me this time. “Share your secrets. Everything you feel, everything you think, every disappointing moment, every joyful period will be written on my skin. My soul will be reading and listening if you have anything to say.”
She scribbled from left to right, in every space she could until the sun went down. Spent, she collapsed on top of me, kissing my neck. “You’re the best thing that’s happened to me.”
Finally, I was on top of the world. She was trusting me, opening up to me.
“What do you want to do, gorgeous?”
“Can we wash them?” she runs her tongue over her lower lip. “The words on your back.”
“Wash them?” I moved from underneath her, tucking her in close to me. Her bright eyes studied me under her long, thick eyelashes. “Why, gorgeous?”
“Maybe they’ll go away forever?”
My mouth found hers, and my hands ran up and down her body. She mirrored my movements on my bare skin tracing my muscles, her eyes following her index finger. My breath hitched as she ran it so close to the elastic of my sweats. Controlling my lust, and the awareness of how close she was to my already pulsing dick—the hammering noise inside my chest was so loud I feared she’d hear it and stop.
Fuck, I wanted to strip her of my dress shirt. The same one she’d worn on and off since Saturday night. I caressed her jaw as I pushed her lightly, lowering my mouth and kissing the hell out of her. She melted under me—our bodies grinding, the friction creating a different kind of heat I’ve never experienced—heat that became an intense fire. Fuck, I wanted her so much, and the way she responded with the same need was sending my entire body spinning out of control.
“Do you think we know each other well?” she gasped between words, catching her breath. The things I could make her feel if only she’d let me. Those eyes filled with uncertainty answering the silent question, are we stopping for the night?
Fuck, I didn’t want to stop. I wished she would let me go down to her core and drive her mad with pleasure as I licked her over and over again. I wanted to consume her, own her, and have her legs wrapped around my waist. I craved having her nails digging into my back as I slammed myself inside her.
I met her eyes, trying to read her. She was burning just like I was, yet her words told a different story. “What happened to dating? Getting to know each other while hanging out around the city?”
I brought my hand to her chin, tipping her face lightly. “If you allow me, I’d love to go out with you for as long as you’ll have me, Miss Willow Beesley.” I brushed my lips across hers.
Her eyes brightened, and her lips parted.
“It’s a date,” I said as I took her lips and kissed her more, hoping I continued being the person she trusted, and maybe become the center of her universe, as she was becoming my entire world.
Chapter Fourteen
Hunter
Four days after her meltdown, she finally agreed to get out of her grandfather’s penthouse. Fitz continued to cover for me until Willow was a hundred percent recovered. As much as they insist I get out of the relationship before things get out of hand, my brothers support me. Even if they believe my irrational decisions will create some kind of pandemonium not even they will be able to fix.
Will it? It won’t. I’m behaving out of the ordinary but I’m capable of getting out of my comfort zone.
Have I mentioned I don’t handle crowds well?
Hopping on a double-decker tour bus might be seen as irrational, but according to Willow, it’s the best way to see New York the way the outsiders see it.
“Are you sure you want to skip the first stop?” Willow releases my hand, taking off her black leather backpack.
“Come on, do you honestly want to see the Freak museum?” I respond, laughing as we grab two seats on the upper deck.
“Frick,” Willow corrects me, pushing my sunglasses up to look at me. “It’s an art museum. Lovely place for weddings and special events. Your entire house is filled with expensive pieces of art. Aren’t you into that kind of stuff?”
“That kind of stuff? Like the art cult?” I arch an eyebrow and give her a look that says woman, you have no idea what you’re talking about. Lifting her hand, I kiss it and keep holding it as the bus rolls onto Fifth Avenue. Leaning closer, I whisper close to her lips, “I’m into any cult that worships you.”
She tries to tug her hand out of my grasp, but I don’t let her. “You have art everywhere, I thought you’d appreciate it.”
“My house is fun. If you prefer, we can go there, and I’ll show you.” I wiggle my eyebrows, drawing circles along her wrist. Oh, what I’d give to be able to run my hands across her silky skin.
Everything changes the moment I see him. My body tenses when a bearded man wearing a hoodie and sunglasses sits right next to us. His hands are tattooed with symbols, letters, and designs I can’t read. He looks like the Unabomber. The chills running through my body make me shiver. What if this man is carrying a bomb inside his orange backpack?
Fuck. Willow is with me. I can’t let anything happen to her. This is a bad idea. Should I call Harrison? Can he stop this man from killing all of us? Hunter, you’re making shit up, calm the fuck down. Placing a hand into my pocket, I rub the piece of cloth I carry around like a security blanket.
“My parents are with me. I’m safe,” I mumble a few times.
No, they aren’t with you. They are dead! Because they couldn’t escape.
Run, go home.
“Or we can head back,” I suggest weakly.
“Today is a good day. I feel energized.” She chooses the worst time to become Little Miss Sunshine. The sweetness in her smile calms me for a few seconds, until I realize she will die with me. I’m such an irresponsible asshole. I put her in danger. “We said we were going to pretend to be tourists.”
Willow hasn’t realized this is it for us. What should I say? Stand up and run with me. Use all the self-defense lessons Harrison taught me. Kill him by destroying his trachea with one hard hit on his throat.
“Loosen up, Hunt.”
Are you insane?
We are going to die!
“We haven’t discussed our motivation or where we’re from?”
Running for your life is motivation enough. He’s going to kill us all.
Willow rests her head on my shoulder. Her coconut scent slows my heartbeat, dragging me back to reality. . .outside my fucked-up mind.
She angles her head slightly, watching me. Fucker, don’t let her see you lose your shit. What is she waiting for? Right, an answer. Say something. We are the kind of tourists who take a helicopter ride instead of a bus. They’re safer, unless someone is using the aircraft to crash it against a building. Utilizing it as a bomb. Fuck, my anxiety spikes once more. My heart thunders against my chest as the man rises from his seat. I cover Willow with my body. The man bends, catching the little blond boy running toward him. Why didn’t I see him?
“Daddy!”
Fuck, I’m such a loon. You’re twenty-eight years old. Hold your fucking shit, Hunter. Touching my throat, I loosen the imaginary hands choking me. Air, I need air. Fuck. Should I have taken a couple more Ativans for my anxiety? Negative, the crap knocks you down for days. Shit, I feel like I’m about to die.
“Are you okay?” Willow squeezes my hand, grounding me. Her warm breath hits the base of my neck.
Act normal! But I can’t get rid of everything going on inside my head. I’m sweating, cold, shivering, and fighting an anxiety attack.
“You’re cold.”
“Nah, I guess it’s chilly.” I hug her tighter. Control your shit for her, fucker!
She gives me a suspicious glare.
“I’m fine, babe.” I kiss the top of her head, nuzzling her hair. Fuck, I wish I could lose myself inside of her.
My cock twitches as I imagine myself thrusting hard in and out of her pussy. Forgetting my shit, driving her wild with my mouth. Listening to her husky voice scream my name as I make her come all over my cock. My hands rest so close to her core, I restrain myself from undoing the button of those tight jeans. I want to do it so badly. I’d be unzipping them and sliding my hand inside her panties, my finger finding her wet pearl. Rubbing it fast with my thumb as I push my finger inside of her entrance.
Fuck, I’m aroused just thinking about the way I can drive her into madness.
“I want you,” I murmur, caressing her ear with my lips, making her shiver. “Are you cold?” My question is followed by my fingers sneaking inside her blouse, finding her warm skin. I draw small, tantalizing, inviting circles. “You have no idea what you do to me, Willow Beesley.”
“Stop it, Hunter Everhart.” She laughs.
I follow, pretending nothing is wrong as my hand pushes inside of her jeans. It’s too tight, but I’ll make my way inside her. I need her.
“What kind of tourists are we?” Her throaty voice makes my dick harder, if that’s even possible.
“International tourists.” I clear my throat. “From Australia.” I fake the accent, sounding like a cheap imitation of Ricky Gervais, who is British, with a bad cold.
“Behave, Mr. Everhart.” She laughs and shakes her head, pulling my hand out of her pants and kissing it. What the fuck am I doing, acting like a pervert? “How about Californians?”
“You’re from California.” I hand her the pair of pink shades hanging from her low-cut blouse. Fuck, those tits, I can’t wait to lick them—suck each one so hard she’ll come as she rides my hand.
“Eyes up here, Hunter Everhart. This is a PG zone.” She runs her finger over my jeans. Her nail teases me, almost touching my crotch, but stopping as I push my hips forward.
“We’re from the Valley visiting New York for the first time.” Pressing her hand against my crotch, I mumble, “On our honeymoon.”
“I’ve never been to Los Angeles,” she stutters, swallowing hard. I’m affecting her almost the same way she affects me. “What if I move there? I can try something different, start from the beginning. No one knows I’m a loser.”
“Is that what you want?” I redirect her conversation, the last thing I want to do is engage in depressing subjects. “Why did you choose New York instead of Hollywood?”
“Performing live is what I enjoy the most.” She moves her hands away from my crotch and combs her long dark hair with her fingers. Shifting it to her left shoulder and leaving her thin, stylish neck bare, tempting me to kiss it. “But it hasn’t worked out. Maybe I did something wrong.”
“You love it,” I state, redirecting her insecurities. How can I deal with them when I’m just swinging with the conversation the best I can without losing my shit? “What’s your favorite part of your job?”
“The applause I receive after each performance is unique. Never the same.” Her posture relaxes, her neck stretches, and her voice fills with excitement. “I like the vibe and energy coming from a live audience. The reward, the love, and the mutual feedback are irreplaceable.”
“Do you want us to go to a play?” I suggest.
“I’d rather go to the Frick museum,” she counters. Maybe we’re both avoiding what we fear the most. “But I think you’re trying to avoid it.”
Can she blame me? There are too many memories inside that building. Mom loved that place. The old mansion has one of the most unique collections of art from the old world. She was a member and brought us every chance she got, at least once or twice a month. Each time she spent hours explaining every era, artist, and technique. Scott continues to pay the membership in memory of Charlotte Everhart. I’d rather avoid places where I’m reminded they’re gone.
“What’s there to avoid?” I turn my focus to the scenery, pretending to enjoy the trees that are starting to awaken from the long winter. Spring hasn’t stuck to the program. There was a light snowfall only a couple of days ago. “If you want to go to the museum, we’ll visit the Museum of Natural History. Isn’t that the one where they filmed that movie Night at the Museum?”
She twists her lips to the side, sucking on her cheek. I want to be the one sucking her lip, or her sucking my dick. The arousing thought is shut down when a kid behind us wails.
“You watch too many movies, don’t you?”
“Mostly action and sci-fi. You’re making me watch musicals.” I wink at her. “And I love it.”
I tolerate musicals—I don’t notice them when Willow is around. Fuck, I would go to a Justin Bieber concert if that’s what it took to make her smile. Grasping Willow’s hand, I hold onto whatever we’re feeling right now. I erase the thoughts of my parents, continuing to appear like a normal guy hanging out with his girlfriend. I’m fine now, at least I think my heart is beating back to normal. No one, not even her, needs to know what’s happened to me.
Chapter Fifteen
Hunter
What is wrong with the freaking weather? This is the chilliest April I’ve experienced in my entire life. I wouldn’t give a shit if we weren’t on day four of our New York tourist adventure. Yesterday, we went to the Empire State Building, Rockefeller Center, and the American Museum of Natural History. Unlike the first day, we didn’t ride the forsaken hop-on bus. Instead, we walked and rode the subway on our way to take the ferry. Whose idea was it to tour New York? I was in the most enclosed space in the city with lots of people around us. People coming in and out at every stop. I stiffened and relaxed as many times as they breathed.
I was a ticking time bomb. It happened within seconds. It felt like a long, painful sequence that lasted hours, and I was its hostage. A kid, it was a kid who grinned and lifted his hand and pretended to have a weapon. One guy with a thick mustache and beady eyes was about to step forward, opening his jacket ready to pull the trigger. I ducked, covering my head.
“Stay with me, Hunt,” Willow’s gentle voice said, her hands holding my face, lowering so my eyes could find hers. “Breathe in and out. We are almost outside. The next station is coming up, you’re safe.”
And fuck those words felt like a stab. I promised to protect her, and here she is taking care of my handicapped psyche. My mind went to the morning when I watched the towers burn, knowing my parents were there, and there was nothing I could do to save them. The loneliness, the first punch of panic gutting me. I was a coward who pretended to slay dragons and save women. No such thing, I’d rather be inside the tower hiding.
“Hunter,” she repeated. Her eyes trying to remain calm but mirroring the fright I was experiencing.
She gave me an empathic smile. Her eyes spoke softly, as if they were saying, I know what you’re going through. It’s okay, I’m with you. Having her there with me calmed me enough to stand up and pretend I could breathe. I almost forgot everyone around me. She understood me. My first instinct had been to take her mouth and devour her alive, releasing the pent-up energy inside me.
As the metal doors slid open, she took my hand while yelling, “Run with me.”
Exhaling hard, I push us to hurry over the threshold of my bedroom.
“I’m sorry,” I say the moment the door closes, worried about the backlash from the scene I made in the subway.
“Tell me how to make this better, Hunt.” Her voice is sultry, yet sweet. Her soft hands caress my face. Desire lights up in those enigmatic, green eyes. Her behavior surprises me. No, it stuns me. I was ready for her to drop my ass for being a weak son of a bitch. Instead, she’s asking me how she can help. She’s stealing yet another piece of my heart.
“I didn’t mean to ruin your day,” I repeat, finding an excuse for my behavior.
There’s nothing I can say that will make me sound normal. The baggage I carry on my back is revealing itself. She’s going to notice that I have to count every step I take, in case where I stand crumbles, and I have to give someone my exact location from the door to where I might be situated. The gun under my bed, the first response kit inside my closet, and the list of places to go in case we’re under attack, are anything but normal. Every day, I expect another life-changing catastrophe. Just as I pray that I make it to live for another day.
I’m not a religious person, but I believe in God. I believe in an entity that plays with our lives and takes pleasure in moving us like peons on a chessboard for his or her amusement. Because if God was all-loving like Mom taught us, he or she wouldn’t have let my parents die. At least, not the way they did.
“You didn’t ruin anything, Hunter.” She kisses me on the lips. “Perfection is nonexistent. So what if the subway isn’t for you? We’ll take one of your luxurious cars next time.”
“Tourists don’t have those,” I remind her of the game we’ve been playing.
“What do tourists do then instead?”
