Fake It For Me, page 20
Tonight, is the night I am going to finally lose my virginity and get my satisfaction. It’s time for me to finally become the woman that I was always supposed to a few years ago.
I just need to sit here for a few more moments to calm right down, then once I’m through this post orgasmic bliss, I will go out and face Tony Compton once more. Then I will let him see what he’s been missing for all this time. I don’t know what his life has been like in England, probably more interesting than mine here, but our paths are about to cross once more.
Tony
Natasha Hatfield. The sight of her makes my heart stop racing for a moment. I only came here on the random off chance that I might see her, I wasn’t expecting it to actually happen, but it has. She’s here and so am I. Me and the girl who was I was meant to be with in the same room again after all of these years. Who would have thought it?
I watch her run all the way to the bathroom. She passed me. She must have seen me, I can tell by the haunted look in her eye. Right now, she wants to escape, she doesn’t want to see me, and I can understand that. After all, we left on really weird terms. The last time I saw her, she was naked, and I was hurriedly shoving my clothes back on as my mom’s hysteria got worse and worse on the phone. All I knew at the time was that my mom’s mental state hadn’t been the best for the last few weeks, so this was going to tip her over the edge.
And that it did. It left her in such a mess that she didn’t even want me around anymore. In the messy divorce, she couldn’t handle it, so she sent me to live in England without even giving me a chance to say goodbye to Natasha. I got swept away with it, I didn’t think too much about it at the time, I just knew that I had to keep going along with whatever was expected of me. She was pushed to the back of my mind while I tried to figure life out.
But she never left completely, she’s always been there in my brain. Even when I have dated other people, even when I thought that I would never come back to America, she was always there…
And now I have come back for her, and I intend to make her mine.
“Yo, Compton!” my old buddy, Ethan, taps me on the shoulder. “Didn’t know you were coming, mate.”
“Well, I got the online invite, just like everyone else, so I guess I thought I might as well come.”
“But don’t you live in like, Australia or something? I didn’t even know that you were here.”
“England, actually.” Wow, I really did let everyone slide away when I moved.
“So, are you like, here for good, or what? Because if so, we should totally hang out at some point.”
I spot the bathroom door swing back open and Natasha returning to the party. Her cheeks have reddened, she appears a little spaced out. Have I really had that much of an effect on her after all this time?
“Er, yeah maybe,” I reply distractedly. “I don’t totally know what I’m doing yet.”
“Oh, hey, handsome.” Fingers pinch my butt, instantly making me spin around. “Thank you for coming to my birthday. It’s really awesome to see you here because…” Kayla makes a big show of glancing around as if she’s worried that anyone cares what she’s saying. Then she leads in with a stage whisper. “I have always had a crush on you. Even in high school. But I was always dating that dumb jock and you had that weird girlfriend.”
Urgh, she’s repulsive. I never liked her in high school but it’s even worse now to see that she hasn’t grown up at all. Unfortunately for Kayla, high school will always be the best years of her life.
“Well, happy birthday, Kayla.” I raise my drink up to her. “I hope you have a good one.”
“Hey wait.” She grabs on to me, refusing to let me go. “Don’t you want to talk to me?”
Ethan shoots me hey dude, what the hell are you doing look, but I ignore it. She might not have grown up, but I have, and she doesn’t rule the roost anymore. She’s of no interest to me. She never has been.
“I have somewhere to be actually.” I tug my arm away. “So, I guess I will see you later.”
“But aren’t you mega rich now?” Kayla’s bottom lip pokes out. “That’s totally hot, you know.”
I resist the urge to roll my eyes. So, she’s one of those. I should have guessed. Of course she would all of a sudden be interested in me because of my father’s billionaire business. It isn’t anything to do with me at all. The money isn’t even mine and I get gold diggers. One with their eyes on the future, I presume, seeing the day when I will inherit it all. Right now, I just work for the company, and yes, I get a ton of money for what I do, but I’m quickly learning that it can’t make me happy. It isn’t meaningful, and I need something meaningful.
“Right, well, I still need to leave, so if you would please let me go…”
“Wy are you acting like this?” Kayla’s hands fly to her hips like she hasn’t ever been rejected before. Maybe she hasn’t and that’s what her problem is. “What the hell is wrong with you? Just talk to me?”
“I don’t want to talk to you, Kayla. Just like you never had the time of day for me in school. You never had a crush on me, and I never liked you either. You don’t get to start talking to me now because you think I can buy you diamonds. That isn’t ever going to be the case because you don’t deserve them from me.”
She looks shell shocked as I walk away and I do feel a little mean, but she wasn’t getting the hint otherwise. She didn’t understand that I just have nothing to say to her, so I had to be blunt. I shake that guilt and continue walking towards Natasha who is the only person who I have any time for. The person I came here to find again.
I lock my eyes upon her and my heart leaps up into my throat. She is pointedly looking away from me, she doesn’t want to see me just yet, but that’s okay. She will. I’m confident in the idea that once I explain what happened, filling in the bits that she isn’t aware of, we can get things back on track again. I feel like we can probably pick up where things left off and happily fall in love. I haven’t closed the chapter in England just in case, but I will if she wants to. I’m willing to leave it all behind to have my Natasha back.
“Hi,” I say softly as I rest my hand on the small of her back. “Long time no see.”
She jumps and spins around, looking at me with shock and horror in her eyes. “Er… erm… I…”
I can’t help but laugh. She doesn’t seem like the cool, confident Natasha that I left behind. But I suppose this meeting is much more of a shock to her than it is to me. I just hoped that she was going to be here. She had no idea.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you.” I smile brightly. “I was just in the neighborhood and thought I might swing by. See how some of the old gang are doing, that sort of thing. You know how it is.”
“In the neighborhood? But don’t you…?” She shoots me a disbelieving look. “You aren’t here anymore.”
“I haven’t been, but I am for the time being. I’m not too sure what my future holds.”
“No?” She leans her back against the wall as if she needs it to keep her upright. “Why not?”
“Well, I’ve been living with my father for years now, working for his new company, but I thought that it might be time to reconnect with my mother. After all, we didn’t exactly leave on the best of terms. I don’t think I fully understood her reasoning at the time because I was young, but now… well I want things to be different.”
She nods and I watch her gulp nervously. “Yes, I see your mom from time to time. She is looking much better these days. I think… yes and I think that a visit from you will do her a lot of good.”
I hope that she’s talking about herself as well. I really hope that it’s a good thing I’m back. To be honest, I haven’t even considered a scenario where it won’t be. I never considered that she might be with someone and happy or that she might hate me so much for leaving her that she wants me gone.
I don’t know if there is anything still there between us on her end, but for me it’s sizzling like crazy. I can almost feel her body back on top of mine, grazing over me, sending me absolutely wild. My cock yearns for her, wanting to be inside her already, to finally finish off that night. But I can’t get ahead of myself yet…
“So, how are things here?” I ask. “Aside from my mom that is?”
“Erm, yeah all is good.” She nods slowly. “I’m not working in the diner…”
“The diner? You are?” I can’t hide my surprise. “I thought you would be…”
“Doing something better?” Her lips turn down in to a scowl. “So did everyone else.”
I can tell that there’s a story there, but I don’t think that I should push it. I’m not sure why, but I feel like this might be my fault somehow. Maybe it is since I vanished in the middle of the night just before the exams. I really hope that didn’t affect her grades and everything… god, I never really thought about it. That isn’t good.
I have so much to make up for. More than I knew. I wonder if I would have come if I’d known…
But I don’t think that this is the time or place to get into that kind of conversation. However much I want to, I need to be smart and think about doing the right thing for Natasha too and taking things slow. She might not be willing to jump in to this head first and see if we sink or swim like I am.
“Do you like your job? I mean, is it making you happy and everything?”
She shrugs her shoulders, giving me nothing. Her eyes scan over the top of me and I follow her eye line to see her friend from school, Tara, wrapped around her boyfriend from school.
“Are Tara and Freddie still together?” I gasp. “Wow, they made that last a long time.”
“Together is a strong way to put it.” Natasha’s eyes almost roll to the back of her head. “But they hook up a lot. They are still like horny teenagers and now that they’re together, I won’t see her all night long.”
“I guess you’re stuck with me then…” I joke but it doesn’t land. “I mean, if you want…”
“I’m not against spending time with you,” she finally says, which to my ears sounds as good as if she had just told me that she’s in love with me. “But I don’t really feel comfortable here. I’m not really into the whole ‘reunion’ thing. The people that we lost touch with after high school left our lives for a reason. Is there any point in trying to get that friendship back when you’re a completely different person these days…?”
She trails off as she realizes what she’s just said and how it applies to the two of us. I get it, I know what she means. We are all very different, I include myself in that, but that doesn’t matter. If there is still something there between us, then I don’t see any issue in trying to give it a go. It can only go one way or the other, can’t it? There is only one way to find out…
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